Reine with the Flavours of my Life

I am back juz for a sec

2009-05-28T13:48:00.005+08:00

yesh...either i have been busy or i intentionally avoid to blog cuz once i pick up again i can't stop n it will significantly affect my time management during this precious 3 months left...

but juz a quick update..i have been to china, europe, malaysia and back and then started school for almost 3 months.. obviously lotsa things happened...

as for my china europe part you guys could check out reinelective.blogspot.com which i have neglected once i stepped outta UK..
it's juz like stacking bricks...the bricks are piling up there enough to build a house but yet the architect here has no motivation watsoever to build it. the construction of the house requires huge effort such as organising my thoughts, my experience, my pictures then put them up on web and organise them again....once i have done that i usu can't help myself to read them over and over again to make the fine changes.... how time consuming is it...

so i shall start from when i returned to sydney....

it's all about studying, trying to skip hospital to study and paktohing to put my mind off studying

1. i have done 1 month of geris which i enjoyed alot- luv the team lots as they gave me attention and teaching which i have nv experienced in my previous term even i participated fully.
wonderful high flying regis who likes to eat :D i enjoy the thursday sushi session and the occasional treats as well.

Andrew, Holly, Vivek and Julie

2. 1month of ed, learn alot given the very minimal time i spent there due to exams. the cases are very applicable to sixth year learning and the shifts are flexible. usually i go at 4 pm and leave around 8-9pm. in that way i can have my late mornings and late nights :D

once i m done with exam it's studying with for the finals again....
Again, i will be contemplating how to skip the hospital and get sign off....
this is because i have learnt fr last year that hospital participation took up too much of my time and energy and the learnign is not as efficient as mugging at home.
it may not be true for everyone but this is me...

now i'm at neuro....i would say my participation is very minimal as compared to last year when i bersemangat. Neuro has a very good programme for students. it would be good if this happened during 5th year....but now i 've gotta prioritise - study for exam or participate as a team. obviously i choose the first one

my other social events include
Movie marathon plus east msia laksa sleepover session at jacq's place

Jacq's birthday party

Josh's Wedding
at a very short notice but everything went unscathed :D

Updates

2008-12-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

Hi Peeps

i have created a new blog address dedicated juz for my elective trip
the address is reineelective.blogspot.com or click here
soon it will be full of interesting encounters
while i'm here in smoky Cybercafe in China trying very hard to find various ways to back up my pics/video before i got rob ( i have already inhaled like 3 hours of pple's exhalation) :P so that i wouldn't lose all my information.
hopefully i can survive long enuf to blog

i have already uploaded my pics on picasa but will tell ya the address later on

How to contact me if you are desperate!

2008-12-10T13:56:00.002+08:00

hey guys,
i'm currently in a cybercafe in China, inhaling all da 2nd hand cig. smokes.
it's been a long time since i last visited CC when i played CS in KL.

as i realised that i have many incoming phone calls on my roaming mobile. but i dont ' dare to pick them up as it will prolly incur a huge cost on yours and my phone bill.

i can't buy a local sim card as my phone is locked for only 3 Mobile Sim as it's a FREE phone.

so if you juz wanna convey a msg, juz send a sms to my mobile
if you wanna hear my voice, you can actually call this number

Malaysia (00)(8620) 36587631
Singapore (001)(8620) 36587631
Australia (0011)(8620) 36587631

i guess you can usually get me at night.
or juz leave me a msg on my email or facebook.

i have to rush back to the Acupuncture clinic soon. they actually have a 2.5 hr lunch break. what a luxury. i will do plenty of retrospective blog posts when i have the time.

一色

2008-11-21T20:21:00.002+08:00

juz a scene where ナナ finally made her debut

This is the movie on sisterhood that will touch a girl's heart and guys can never understand.
if a guy understand this movie, he will be labelled by other male species as GAY :P

息息相系

2008-11-20T12:08:00.010+08:00

Thanks all for the midnight bday wishes on msn , facebook bday wishes, sms bday wishes. thanks jacq and john for plush toy Bladie, candy bracelet & chocs, thanks Imel for Ah Si, Thanks Bro for the 10 day flexi eurail pass, thanks mom, dad and bro for the offline msn bday wish, thank deb for the bday card in transit. last but not least thanks perth for the peaceful ren hana & company. thanks all for making this bday sucha memorable one despite my exam stress.

LOVE YOU ALL (hahaha sorry for being too mushy)

无常

2008-11-13T19:28:00.003+08:00

人生变幻无常

就如我捕捉着这一刻骤雨来临前

下一秒钟此景不再

无论我再尝试以不同角度，最快速度

哈哈可谓风云变测

一个月前的我怎样也没料到一个月后的我

生命起了微妙的变化

一年前的她也没料到一年后的她

生命起了变化

周遭的人都为她感叹

一向以情义分明的我也想为她做点什么

wow butterflies, how does she know you love butterflies

look i brought u 2 friends

this look like a strawberry

it has ur favorite pearls on it

this is a bunny, sounds like your nickname bun bun

feel how soft are they?!

do you want to give them names

we will call this bun bun

wat do you want to name this?

raspberry?

RASPberry!!!

we shall give them middle names too

this has a flower so we call it bunbun flower

and we can call this raspberry pearls

do you want to taste it?

*smiles*

do you like them?

*nods*

BiBiZhou周筆暢

2008-11-10T20:14:00.004+08:00

juz randomly found this girl from china with a powerful voice and can sing guys ' songs relatively well. she is the product of China Talent Show Supergirl 2005 - runner up.
catching up with the Champion. She is packaged as the tomboyish type of girl (same as the Champion)

and this is her new album - NOW WOW. no time to listen but let's hope the production team doesn't mess her up with commercialised songs.

haha of course she sang this 1000X better than F4 >_<

海角七号 Cape No.7

2008-11-09T21:27:00.002+08:00

wanna watch this movie sometime somehow....

這是《海角七號》裡的其中一封情書。

这是日本戰敗撤離台灣時一名日本老師寫給台灣學生情人友子的情書，

“把我淹沒在這台灣與日本的海域，這樣我就不必為了我的懦弱負責。友子，才幾天的航行，海風所帶來的哭聲已讓我蒼老許多，我心裡已經做好盤算，一旦讓我著陸，我將一輩子不願再看見大海。海風啊，為何總是帶來哭聲呢？愛人哭，嫁人哭，生孩子哭，想你未來可能的幸福我總是會哭，只是我的淚水，總是在湧出前就被海風吹乾，湧不出淚水的哭泣，讓我更蒼老了。可惡的風，可惡的月光，可惡的海。”

OMG so emo....haha >_<

after watchin the trailer, it's not as emo as i tot

Light at the end of Tunnel

2008-11-01T23:07:00.008+08:00

I like the feel 意境 of this photo :D haha looks like something from the X-file right?!
many people have different interpretations of it
John said this look like the little gal running towards Heaven... (actually she was running away from me :P)
obviously i prefer the X file version :P give it a little bit of SUSPENSE (with the X file music playin in background). u don't know where is the girl goin?She can be disappearing into the 4th dimension or kidnapped by ALIENs. :D

fyi, the little gal inside is not me but my little cousin.
wonder how are she and her sister?
definitely not a very pleasant childhood with separated parents.
why do adults like to play such games and make such mistakes?
something i yet to understand~~
I prefer to make wise decision even tho it means I may take a long time.
and i'm thankful of my parents who sacrifice their freedom by staying together juz to give me and my bro a whole family.

没有脾气的葱

她在十五岁那年遇上了AIHA,

平凡的日子不再，

还差点变成月亮婆婆

十七岁时没了脾气

她很不服气

虽然现在风平浪静

但总是担心这一切很快就使转变

就像八年前那一天

她。。。是小葱

勇敢的小葱，要趁暴风雨来临之前

在薄冰上舞出自己的未来

To Make a Difference in People’s Life

Molly

2008-10-21T15:15:00.007+08:00

I am glad that summer is coming so that i can bring her out more often now.
Yesteray she was in pretty crook mood. didn't wanna talk or watsoever
saying that she wanna die....

so i juz brought her to the sun, did her nails.etc

previous time it was a better experience as she was in a brighter mood, and don't want me to leave. it's always fluctuating huh - shld have stayed longer then.

Kate was right, previously i felt that there were very few things i could do with her. but Kate told me that it is the quality time. not quantity. Many people will juz pass by and say hello but no one will actually pay one to one attention to her. haha, doing her nails provides tactile stimulation to her, bringing her out to the sun give her strong bones ( the folks seldom go out as it's juz very hard for the nursing staff to cope while they are outdoor ) :D at the same time i can practise my manicure skills :D. Ironically, my nails are not polished. too troublesome for someone like me - have to wash hand so often, have to carry heavy groceries.etc. definitely very hard to maintain :(

aren't they pretty :D
recipe is Sally Hansen Diamond Strength Diamond SHINE Base & Top Coat + Rimmel London 60 Seconds Vinyl Shine Euphoria

occasionally i will change the Vinyl Shine Euphoria to Manicare French Pink.
i think old folks prefer those lipstick bright red color....but then still gotta finish what i bot first.
haha my crash visit to the manicure bar has definitely come in handy now
still think Opi Nail Polish is the BEST !!!

Nov 14 will be her 100th birthday. She is like 100 years and 5 days older than me. :) party at 2:30pm, there will be msg from the queen of England for her. looking forward to the party. no wonder Molly was saying something about the Queen coming and what should she wear and what should she said. i thought she was remembering the past or mayb she did hallucinate. Sister was asking me do i know her niece. Apparently they can't contact any of her relatives. :(, not even the son. rumour is that the son is in nursing home too :S

One interesting thing happened before that. while Molly was having her hair done,i brought another resident around the corridor. she is always in crook mood, agitated, irritatble and CRANKY. I wanna bring her to balcony, she held on to the door and refuse. OK FINE, so i closed the door. Without warning she smacked me on the butt twice and called me a slut ::(... haha if this come from a normal person i will slap the person back. LOL. well i was amused. then she kept telling passer by that i kidnap her and i'm a bad girl.... kept calling out for help. but the people are juz used to her being lidat. haha
luckily Molly is not like that. :D

The Train Story

2008-10-18T20:58:00.008+08:00

The train man...

Human is still the most trustable being in some aspects...

Seatless compartment

this picture was taken in a standing position.... prolly not becuz the photographer thinks that this angle is better. in fact this pic is better if it's taken from a lower level...

i think the photographer feels the same as the more dress up lady on the right.... they all have the consensus that the floor is too dirty to be seated :P
or if you wanna think in a more pessimistic way is that they are too posh to put themselve down to the same "level" as others
without seat doesn't mean it's not good. u can sleep without "fishing" all da time (yx can tell u about that), you can lay a newspaper infront of you and peel the pees w/o bending under the seat to pick up the fallen peas. you can juz pile all ur belongings/crops into a mountain. infact seatless is more practical in this situation.

haha....i think i have fallen prey to the general population of photographers who like to shoot the poverty and sufferings of people....and display in a gallery and let urban audiences exlaim in awe how beautifully exotic & emotional the pictures are and then claim the prize of some photography contest. Something is juz not right here....

Colour Blindness

2008-10-11T19:47:00.007+08:00

I think this hand belongs to X'tine, the baby was random :D
haha mayb the mom was dozing off at the back while the baby was playing with some stranger who was potentially a paedophile.
Jokes andHygiene aside, this is a beautiful picture
I like how the toddler is like a little cub that is unaware of the potential danger lurking around,
accepting love from someone. (you don't see that often in paeds ward, the kids are always too alarmed *_*)

or we can say that this kid is "colorblinded", expanding from this
so is being racist =being too alarmed/aware? afraid that the other more superior/inferior race may jeopardise your current status/safety? if not, why people bother to be racist at all.... it's all back to the explanation of personal benefit.

i am not a political social science student so this is certainly not my forte and definitely no publishable analysis here..... but these are the small little things that you come ax so often in life. Thus the name: University of Society. 社会大学 Everyone is the undergraduate :D learning to be a better person day by day.
and there is the constant exam/test/tutorial but never a graduation ceremony *_*(luckily MBBS is not like that else i'll pengsan- we need a pitstop somehow, isn't it?!)

the ColourBlindness of young kids
this Nationalistic Commercial for malaysia national day tries to bring across the message to the adults who has too much historical societal burden on them. i just think it's ironic altogether as things are neva that simple.....

This is what you called propaganda..... >_< Nevertheless it's still a cute commercial

People Relation Case Scenarios

2008-10-10T22:49:00.007+08:00

Case Scenario 1- Judgemental ?!

Over dinner, A made a remark that becuz B told A his unpleasant experiences with C. it sorta affect A's judgement towards C and even had hindered his interaction with C but in actual fact as time goes by A realised C is not as bad as what B depicted him as

B explained that he juz wanna share his true experience with A so that A will be aware of things around. B chose to share his experience openly to A reason being he considered A as a long time friend. However, now B is guilty about what he did and if he knew it would have such repercussion - he would choose not to say anything instead.

B also tried to explain to A that people tend to have different experience towards a same individual giving a very good eg of their experiences with P, so that similar situation would not happen next time.

Case Scenario 2 - Overpowering

Sometime go, D has told Z about Y being too overpowering by snatching up opportunities (too domineering in short). Z was quite upset that D told him that now Z is the one too overpowering in the current projectwork. Z didn't expect himself to becoming like Y.

Z didn't reply to D on the spot when the remark was made as he felt that he was not in a coherent mind to reply and he may not give an answer that he actually meant. the conversation could turn heaty anytime. Z already realised the problem beforehand but as he had done a similar project. THus he felt a strong urge to take a leading role and improve on the current project.

Case Scenario 3 - Inconsideration

G mentioned that J has not been getting along well with quite a few people.
both of them have quite different point of view towards dealing with people

J: it's hard to please everyone so he rather please himself to make life easier for himself
G: prefers to please others, and he will be happy when others are happy even that means he has to swallow whatever shit that comes to him.

G: will consider the other's feelings when doing something in the sense that "what would himself feel if other pple treat him this way" while J tries too hard to not losing out. he oso thinks that J wants reciprocal treatment: eg when he treat someone nicely he would expect the same thing back.

J: agrees with G about feeling for others and didn't realise he appeared to be too straightfoward and inconsiderate to G. and lastly who the hell like losing out and don't like reciprocal treatment.

J think that G may not know him well enuf to pass a judgement like that.

so is J too stubborn in this case? or is G too judgemental?
who do you agree with? or disagree with.

What do you think of each of these characters? Have similar scenarios happenned to you before? do you have a solution to them? welcome any input :D

人。物。事。

2008-10-05T14:30:00.012+08:00

老家

小Y头回到外婆家，万事都新奇

古旧的木屋，斑驳的墙板，热烘烘的锌片屋顶

周围是比她还老的香蕉树，红毛丹树

午饭了，舅舅带着她在那粗糙的洋灰洗手盆

用那在不远处瀑布所引来的天然泉水洗手

这一切一切与高级公寓就是不同

陌生却又无比亲切

天真无知的她只是这间木屋的过客

一年来去用十只指头算一算都搓搓有余

再加上她还没发育完全的前脑

理所当然

她没能了解这里存载着妈妈舅舅的儿时记忆

也无法了解外婆的伟大

外婆的渐渐离去，是妈妈舅舅得面对的悲痛过程

也成了女孩不知觉的遗憾

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不变的辛勤

她的民族，以辛勤为名，以辛勤而活

来到异乡的她，这刻苦的特征仍显露无遗

在艳阳下的她散发着如此灿烂的活力与快乐

这独特的气质是如千金小姐，时时躲避大太阳的我无可比拟的

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似近非近

人前如此恩爱，却又不知觉的貌合神离

也难怪他们的背景悬殊

连大自然都好像特意的嘲笑他们

让两棵大树中间隔了一条干瘸土路

还好他们还年轻，时间选择不缺

错了一次能再重来

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酷就是魅

坐在一棵倒下枯死的树桐，专注的用他的SLR 捕捉大自然与人的沟通

被迎风起乱的茅草包围着的他，此刻静止的气质深深地吸引着我

让我忍不住拍下了时间为他停止的这一刻

哈哈，他万万没想到他摄猎者也有这一天吧

他的人就如此画，沉着，就是俗人所说的酷

他越酷，我就越发想多认识他，想把他的脑袋里的一切给挖出来

认真的男人是最有魅力的. 我四肢举起同意 ^0^

小情歌 little Love song

2008-10-04T20:33:00.006+08:00

Random Couple Strolling Along one of the Sabah beach, towards the sunset 2006
wonder how are they now.................

這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著人們心腸的曲折
我想我很快樂　當有你的溫熱　腳邊的空氣轉了

這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著我們心頭的白鴿
我想我很適合　當一個歌頌者　青春在風中飄著
你知道　就算大雨讓整座城市顛倒　我會給你懷抱
受不了　看見你背影來到
寫下我　度秒如年難捱的離騷
就算整個世界被寂寞綁票　我也不會奔跑
逃不了　最後誰也都蒼老
寫下我　時間和琴聲交錯的城堡

你知道　就算大雨讓整座城市顛倒　我會給你懷抱
受不了　看見你背影來到
寫下我　度秒如年難捱的離騷
就算整個世界被寂寞綁票　我也不會奔跑
最後誰也都蒼老　寫下我
時間和琴聲交錯　的城堡

~ by 蘇打綠 Sodagreen

Patisserie, Alcohol & Belief

2008-09-28T16:23:00.006+08:00

i know the title seems like a weird combination but they do very much related to our life

As you know some Patisserie has alcohol as one of its ingredient.

~~some people are juz simply alcoholic that a little bit of alcohol is no big matter
~~some are no big fan of alcohol but still socially consume it, a little bit in the cake doesn't harm
~~some has strong anti-alcoholism personal belief but the patisserie is juz too good to resist
~~some has religious belief that forbids them from consuming alcohol in any way/such strong anti-alcoholism that they never give a second look at those product or purposely avoid them.

well too bad they are missing out a good part of life (not a very big part tho)

Belief or not: alcoholism will harm your body/life, that's a fact
belief are laid out in such a way that the people will not go into alcoholism-abstinence is the best.
I agree.
but sometimes belief are so outdated. be it 200 BC or 200 AC, no one will expect that you can add a little rum in that nice little delicate piece of patisserie to make it heavenly thus resulting in its earnest followers to still behave in a very much ancient way nowadays.

this behaviour towards one small piece of patisserie is also a reflection of many bigger issues nowadays.

PS: i like to add a little redwine into my tuna and mushroom , the taste is better. I know it's a weird combo again. but at least it's still edible.

chocloate rum torte

The Bookiest time of my Life

2008-09-23T20:51:00.014+08:00

found out that my $30 book voucher expired few days ago. Panicked. it totally slipped my mind mayb becuz i was too busy in bankstown. regretted for procastination for the pass few mths (well i was waiting for the newest edition of lonely planet-western europe)
went down to unibook shop today. asked the shopkeeper if i still can use it. the shopkeeper was so nice that i almost fall in love with him on the spot. haha " of course he said i can still use them lah!"
yonxian said i am so cheapskate and thickskin to use an expired voucher , but i totally dont' feel like it in anyway.... it's such an foreign idea to me that using an expired voucher =cheapskate....hahaha mayb i m born cheapskate. haha....y shld i throw away the 30 dollars i earned with my sweat and skin

linger around the med books section, concluded that i shld not buy a med related bk becuz:
1. i have had enuf of medicine
2. they are juz not worth buyin in OZ when i can get so much cheaper in msia
3. i have tonnes of e-books and the INTERNET google and medline.
4. even if i bought one, i m nt sure whether i will utilise it fully.
at the mean time i regret my decision of buying some med books the past few years due to my ignorance

then i wandered to the scientific writing section
saw the FAMOUS richard dawkins section and the notorious God Delusion....wanted to own it....(wondering what's all the fuss about) tried to borrow it last year during hols but it was so sought after that i didn't manage to hold it for more than 3 days before someone reserved it.

Karma + Impermanence

2008-09-23T20:51:00.012+08:00

Karma 业障

After hearing the Bodhi night talk, i don't really like the idea of Karma from how it is being presented, not that i don't believe in it but i juz dont' like the way it is being advocated.

Bad Karma: people take note of what they say/do so that they don't hurt people, (this is good) but all these are done with the belief that one day it may get back to them in some ways. Good Karma: people do good things thinking that one day they or their future generation will receive good in the future .

isn't there some kind of similarity in this with christianity as well...if you don't do this and that, you will go to hell....so people behave " good" with that fear/belief in mind.
i certainly understand and agree how religion give a good guide to people in life....

but It's all about SELF SELF and SELF where are the ALTRUISM ?!!!

Being normal people, we can never be as saint as the reverend/monks/nuns
this is becuz they have gotten rid of all burden and obligations so they can afford to be as saint as how the teachings depict the ideal. it is juz so impractical/impossible for normal people to do that.

can you imagine one day when Bill gates, Barrack Obama or alikes ( i know it's not a good eg) realise the buddhism within them and decided to be the ultimate saint.... how is the current world going to function...........
so in my opinion: not being saint is not the norm pple's fault, they have their circumstances

IMPERMANENCE
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came ax this seemingly "chim" term around 2 years ago when
these is the only word my good fren's buddhist boyfriend gave her when he broke up with her while she is still much in love with him.
* i'm talking from a 3rd person's perspective

i was puzzled and confused and then I was like " What the HELL?!!!"
can you imagine how she felt at that time?

it is certainly abusing of the term

well we all know that knowing this life idea makes giving away your possession much easier (As you dont' hang on to it too much) but at the same time beware:please don't overabuse this term to bluff yourself and hurt others.

My last short holiday of the year

2008-09-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

My Fight against Acne

2008-09-23T20:44:00.003+08:00

this will be a half scientific and half autobiographical posting

Due to the nature of my inherited oily skin, I always have papules, comedones around my T zone

One pustule around that time of month. That’s about it, nothing more……………

1. Since adolescent

I tried various medication

Be it Dalacin-T (clindamycin) or Benzoyl peroxide (Oxy), they were pretty good temporary fix.

I used to buy cheaper Dalacin T and Retin-A (isotrenitoin) fr msia for my spore fren who has serious acne

That’s about it

2. Before I came to Australia, I tried facial in a beauty salon which is such a cheater. 90 bucks for some massage, steam and mask. And one free facial wash solution and the content was not even clearly indicated. She didn’t even squeeze my black heads. That was their promotion. Before that, the girls will shine a magnifying camera at my face, enlarging my multiple comedones and enlarged pores right back at me, giving me that oh it’s the end of the world and we are your savior but you have to join our long term programme to survive. And worst of all they compare it with the palmar surface of my forearm where the smoothest skin is. I was too helpless and ignorant at the time so I obliged. But it was juz one try cuz I have to leave for OZ soon.

I went to the local GP who prescribed me topical corticosteroid which totally dries up my skin and make it sensitive and vulnerable (N.B topical corticosteroid is a big no no for acne tx)

I bot the Facial wash with salicylic acid which apparently will help reduce oiliness and get rid of acne.but what it does is to sting my sensitive skin. I did my own mask almost every day which further aggravate the problem (do not scrub your face too!!!)

I heed my cousin advice that mayb I m overwashing my face. So I should be like her: juz rinse my face every morning with water w/o any detergent. (but I forgot that she has perfect complexion) so my skin got worse during that period.

What I didn’t realize is that The problem of my skin at the time was not the oiliness but the sensitiveness due to my over eagerness in treating it. When the skin was sensitive, whatever i put on it will juz aggravate it and the bact is more easily introduced.......

I bot some OTC benzoyl and retin-A over to Australia.

But since I came to OZ, the situation was becoming noticeable. Mayb it’s the air, the weather, the food, the water or the stress…..but whatever modifiable changes I made were all futile.

Pimples juz can’t stop popping out from areas that were so smooth before (the non-T zoneà cheeks)

And I don’t’ like the exacerbation brought on by retin-A (topical retinoids)

I was becoming desperate, I tried facial once which is too expensive to keep up to and my face was too sensitive to all the squeezing. I bumped into the dermatologist registrar in st vinnies, Hanna who gave me prescriptions for Retin-A and benzoyl. They were all non-PBS listed so I have paid outta my own pocket. Used them everyday, not significant changes…..so I gave it all up

For a significant period of time, I juz let it go………… w/o any treatment

Everyday I was contemplating should I pop that cystic zit or not. Everyday I look in the mirror and tell myself heck care that acne with considerable determination….i am going to face the world today w/o thinking about it but that pain of pus stretching the skin was lingering throughout the day. (yet that shows how conscious about it I still was) i can't help thinking how pple will get distracted by my acne who has its yellow pus still hanging in there.

I realize I can’t stop my activities juz becuz of it yet I have to bring myself to face the world. I was slowly emotionally drained…..

During my GP term, I got some OCP outta convenience. Found the oiliness of my skin significantly reduced but zits still come out all da time. Was actually doubting the effectiveness of various topicals when the drug reps were promoting it cuz I myself is a very good case study. I was exasperated…. I didn’t realized how depressed I was.I started blaming my parents for not taking me to dermatologist asap back in msia juz to save the money. Instead we stray to other path such as the GP, the facial, the less dietary meat theory blah blah blah. Seriously I think I’m the kind who got depressed but disguised it so well. People will be so shock to find me committing suicide one day. I was actually crying everyday w/o reason… this acne thing juz eats me silently. But somehow my mom who knows me so well can see thru my emoness juz thru the blurry msn camera – the more she probe into me, the more I can’t contain my emoness. She was so worried that I can feel that she regretted of sending me to OZ.(that’s what I think) Well i thot it mayb the OCP that cause me to have some emo moments but I will tell you later it’s so not it.

i was so obsessive to the point that i actually photoshop my pics during a period. tellin myself that acne is a temporary problem and i will get over it. so i shall not leave any marks on the photos. and in the future i can juz pretend that i have never had acne before. HL knows about it...

Finally, I made up my mind and got myself a referral to a dermatologist and strongly requested for Ro-accutane (after much research on textbk, internet forum and wiki) although he suggested oral Ab doxycline initially. I juz don’t care. I don’t wanna waste my time and money juz in case it doesn’t work. My conclusion is what is oral Ab goin to do about the acne. It’s not goin to help in reducing the pathophysio anyway. When I try, I want to go for the Best for my money. Thus, despite the possible depression as one of its side effect, I took the chance w/o looking back

Days gone by….my complexion significantly improve that I found myself looking into mirror LESS

I found one less thing to worry everynight before sleep and every morning. My Mood significantly improved, I was able to participate in more stuff without much distraction. So I concluded that those cases of suicidal depression after ro-accutane are not actually due to ro-accutane itself but the residual effect of the acne. It was too late for those poor kids to take ro-accutane.

The time and money was all worth it for both my physical and emotional well being…the key is never delay treatment. Clean n clear blue color oil bloater is still my BEST friend tho.

I’m now 3 mths into the tx and I stopped OCP as it has SE on my body. I m able to tolerate ro-accutane at the moment. Have to take it for 6 mths. Hopefully I can recover fully and it will never recur. as for the scarring hope it will fade away ...................

These are the things that people who are blessed with good skin will never understand.

Advice is

Topicals such as Salicylic acid, benzoyl peroxide, clindamycin, retin-A does help

But when situation cannot be contained anymore or it affects you so much, pls go to a specialist and seek advice. Don’t go to facial salon or Chinese med shop. You will realize that GP tend to be reserved and the most they can prescribe is Antibiotics. So please use ur logical reasoning and decide for yourself.

facial will help if you do it regularly to clean your pores and get rid of the black heads which are the precursor of acne. but bear in mind that some of the comedones (esp the close one) can't be remove that easily

I shared my experience with one of my friends who suffered from the same problem. I could totally understand how she feels and I don’t’want her to fall into the same maze as me. she was amazed to see how much I improved over 2 months when she was still struggling with that Chinese medicine regime

But I was shocked to find out that she got her supply of roaccutane from her China friends w/o seeking any specialist advice or undergoing any baseline bld test. Seems like I’m her specialist *_* I strongly discouraged her to do so but I can’t really overright her so Juz have to wish her all da best then…….

this is a wikipedia link on some quite useful info on acne vulgaris

Netball

2008-09-23T20:43:00.009+08:00

the UNSW winter Comp finally came to an end sometime in August.
really enjoy my time playing netball with a bunch of strangers. it seems like i have quite a different agenda as compared to my last year.....a better change :D
even more fruitful as i see how we grow as a team netball is sucha team sport
no regrets for joining it at all .............
hopefully i wil b back in time for another game next year when i'm back fr the trip.
*you can see more of the pics in my netball album in facebook

Bodhi Night - as a choir member

2008-09-23T20:43:00.008+08:00

participated in the Bodhi Nite on 30 Aug 2008
Last year i was the receptionist, this year i was the choir member. it was kinda last minute tho.
*i m never an active member of unibuds* _*
didn't manage to go for weekly practices so i sorta memorised the songs before hand on my own.
and juz went for the rehearsal on the performance day itself. sang 3 songs in total..
i surprise myself by memorising the Sutra song " Jaya Manggala "
which consists of strings of malay sounding words which i don't comprehend till i read the explanation in English. it's hard to memorise songs when you don't understand it and the tune was repetitve with many small variations
funny thing was that when i was memorising it in Bankstown i can slowly turn horizontal with the song still looping in my earphone.

the day was action packed.
early in the morning i was still like a zombie from the late night last minute memorising
i continued memorising with my choir friends in the morning

in between rehearsals we goofed around

the programme master

after 2 rehearsals and 2 nice meals

Lunch
dinner

The vegetarian meals were superb

the moment finally arrived
check it out it's FULL HOUSE

First Song- Jaya Manggala(hi level of difficulty)

i never experienced stage fright till that night when we sang our first song-Jaya Manggala.
i seriously SHIVERed - you can fill the chill down my spine. In my mind i was like " oh shit, are the audiences goin to see that >_< check out the outta the world lyrics on the screen!!!! and it's a 8 min song

in btw the 1st song, the reverend came up to bath the buddha statue

2nd song-Karma

our Last song is the Unibud songof course they have the sketch and many other musical performances

Emcees of the night ( Bilingual presentation)
the quartet

the fortune teller

the retarded brother

kungfu master

check out the apple tree man....i can't imagine this is still being done nowadays. so primitive:D
the finale - unibuds birthday cake

in the process i made many new friends as well as hang out with old friends

the badminton people

and then the bodhi night was concluded. Kudos to the committee and all those who contributed

the food people

the receptionists

the backstage
the archivists

the committee

Gastroenteritis + Sarah's Bday + Birthdays

2008-09-23T20:42:00.004+08:00

ONG term

2008-09-23T20:42:00.001+08:00

A busy Winter Break

2008-09-23T19:38:00.012+08:00

I had a really busy winter break (in my opinion)

CREDIT CARD
***************
I recquee for credit cards. only commbank is able to give me a higher credit card (standard reward card) cuz i'm a old customer...but still not high enuf for me.....i want a platinum

reasons being
-it offers 1 to 1 frequent flyer point(instead of the standard 2 to 1 FFP). - so i can achieve my points faster (especially when i have to pay my humongous sch fees)
-it offers one year travel insurance which is juz so applicable for my elective trip next year.

my minimum aim is to at least get a free return ticket by end of next year to get either my mom/dad to my graduation. :D
but i CAN't get a platinum.....found out that they have to at least see my 6 mths credit hx to determine if they are able to issue one. gonna contact them soon...hopefully they will make an exception juz before my trip this december.
oh ....my BRAIN CELLS!!!!

FLIGHT TICKET
******************
got my multiple stop air ticket settle....i'm taking the qantas/british airway
my itinerary: sydney-->hk-->london-->amsterdam-->london-->singapore-->sydney
suffer some hiccups in between.... wasn't a very pleasant experience... esp in the midst when the oil prices are rocketing but it's all done now ....phew

oh .....more of my BRAIN CELLs!!!!

WESTERN UNION
*******************
went all da way to hurstville for the western union branch juz to transfer some $$$ to london...but the stupid guy insisted that i have to present my Passport -_-. i was so pissed off that i " stormed off" the shop helplessly. was cursing what a stupid strategy for western union to adopt. luckily i found out later that i can juz transfer online so easily.... thanks to my resourcefulness so western union is not that stupid after all. lucky Yonxian, he can juz do it the faster way thru online w/o experiencing all these fuss himself...sometime it's good to do things later than pple right ;P

by right i shld be in COMA now

SUYI
******
wow suyi is my first hcjc friend who came to OZ to visit me :D
wanted her and her frens to stay at my place as my place is o so convenient
but they only stayed for one night b4 they went back to adelaide
it's amazing my small room can fit 4 girls *-*

so i met her in FISH market...weather was SUPERBLY superb. haha....can't believe i actually walk fr darling harbour. its not tt hard afterall.

had the same old routine delicacy such as sashimi and oyster

pass by pancakes on the rocks at darling harbour, had an inpromptu pancake

then went to QVB, went to another cafe (open by some msia) same lvl but opp side fr the one me and HL went. had fruit juice :D

the morning before their flight, we went to SUGAR PLUM. first time eating icecream as breakfast and main meal till we full :D craziness...it was so cold somemore.

yummy green tea + fragrant macadamia on superhard pancakes (well pancakes is not their specialty) and fatty whipped cream ontop

muz try hazelnut next time (these are my top 3)
miss out on the Coogee BBQ with yx, sijia and friends but i figure my decision was a fruitful one

GANESH
*********

so ganesh came to visit during winter break, staying in my place w/o letting me know about it earlier.

he slept in mubeen's room, everynight can hear him discussing LOUDLY with mubeen about somestuff (prolly politics and religion, as always)

first few days he solo or teman by mub

he then decided to go back to melbourne due to unforeseen circumstances and even took a bus to central station but came back in the end cuz he changed his mind (still not too late after i told him earlier there's no point rushing back)
we went to the darling harbour next day, had lunch there.
juz happen it was the WORLD YOUTH DAY. the place is flooded with young pple fr all over the world. turning darling harbour to a giant playground. u see pple laying on the grass everywhere, play balls everywhere. etc i hate crowd....juz spoil the view. (imel and ganesh may disagree with me) afterall i'm the one with caustrophia, not imel :P

so sunny that i had to wear my sunnies

the kids were trying to make funny faces at the back but they are too slow :P

had to shimmy thru the crowd

finally some peace at ian thorpe aquatic centre juz beside pH museum

the aquatic centre looks uber cool with its glass window. but i don't like the feeling of being watched when i swim juz like how i was watching them at that time :D

may b they shld built it at some kind of forest or desert, snowy mountain will be damn cool

we then went to the powerhouse museum..... found it nice initially....but came back home and realise...it was like a cooler version of singapore science centre. not that interested anymore...mayb it's an age thing. but stepping into it juz release the hidden younger me

with the best selling princess ever

shadows canb contemporary too
NASA next top model

the pedals are juz too faraway

of course imel can reach the pedal but too bad she can't cycle....faster go learn lah!!!

try to generate energy manually to light up th e fire engine infront of me

i am so static

dancing on the keys

DO-RE-MI

i still adore the feeling of evening by darling harbour when everything seems so calm juz before the night falls and the clubs are alive again. order a carrot cake fr gloria jean(recommendation by HL) and ate by the harbour. didn't really like it, taste like aeroplane food.

of course the rest of the holiday i have to recuperate from the trauma of external disturbance.. >_<

Bank Hunting

2008-09-23T19:37:00.001+08:00

BANK HUNTING
i recquee for my bank term deposit potential. these banks r located w/i 100meter circumference fr my gp clinic: hsbc, st george, westpac, 2 commonwealth, bankwest.etc. Laiki is in st george. at the mean time i ask my friends in related field for advice.

my conclusion is that
-bankwest offers the best deal (but i have to b australian citizen, hate the feeling of not belonging anywhere all the time)
-rabobank - the one with interesting commercial, recommend by my commerce friend as well
has the second best rate
-then it's laiki
the other more well established non-online banks are more or less the same.

so i took on rabo and my long fren- commonwealthbank. rabo has an interesting password system. you get your password from this calculator look alike gadget, everytime you get different combination.

rabo it's because it has a high interest rate ( 7.9% for almost one month , 7.3 normally), i know it's less reliable than commbank (7.0%) but i shall give it a try short termly.

GP rotation

2008-09-23T19:14:00.004+08:00

GP rotation
i finished my GP rotation like 3 months ago. it was in the hurstville. that was the time i fed myself really well cuz everything is so convenient. it's w/i westfield. did my assignment on team mx of diabetes as well as my negotiated assignment of " screening & prevention of cervical cancer". overall the term is good as i have mentioned before it is away from the high impact hospital setting. i learned lots too as i wasn't familiar of the GP system here. still hasn't gotten back any marks (so as my med term). i have concluded that i shall not be a GP. dont' like the nature of the job. i dont like dealing with harbinger or centrelink wannabes..... if i want quick easy money, i wldn't choose to study med for 6 years to achieve that...i want something more challenging and purposeful....(in my context, so dont' b offended)

Crazy right ? it's been so long

2008-09-23T19:02:00.002+08:00

last time i seriously blog was like 30 June 08. can't even pick myself up to blog last week during holidays. i don't know...mayb it's'becuz i'm busy mayb it's something else

-why i am busy is self understood.
-something else: well, i like to keep note of my life events and share with everyone those interesting bits yet i dont like the privacy intrusion.
privacy intrusion occurs when fren who read my blog said : oh....so you went to this and this....why didn't you come to our party instead.... oh for goodness sake, give me a break. i'm not a very sociable person. sometimes i prefer staying at home talking to myself or imagining myself meeting Jay in Prague.

Above will be my blog illustrating what you have been missing out in my life.....

Jay Chou new album

2008-09-19T10:18:00.002+08:00

Jay chou is goin to release his new album next month i think.
i reallise it's been almost one year since his last album. it's always during the end of year exam period.
haha, could either b a distraction for me or something to keep me relax and happy :D
looking forward to it thus i'm gonna free some space on my laptop for " you know wat" >_<
you know these days you need to be careful on wat you say online cuz it reach a wider audience (haha as if i have lotsa audience)

Tag

2008-06-30T13:12:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Jacq

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

* lazy to change qn >_<> i know this tag thing has been goin on for a while but this is the first time i am replying to one mayb becuz i juz played laser tag :P and i am in the mood. i don't know how many times i'm being tagged tho...

1. Are you a cat or a dog person?

i am a Dog person and Dogs love me too :D

2. How many hours did you sleep the night before you fill in this tag?
9 hours. Cuz it'a a holiday

3. What's your favorite thing to do?
Streaming movie and series

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Yes, part of it.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Be the greatest of what i want to be....

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
NO..... duh.... reality has a great influence in my belief

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My loved ones and myself. (haha....jacq i copy u :P)

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Put in bank to 升利息 so after 10 years it will be 2 million

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
i think love comes after successful confession (influence by Melmel)
so i rephrase the question again

If you meet someone that you like, would you confess to him/her?
i would love to but reality is that i wouldn't if it's too random....

10. List out 3 good points of the persons who tagged you -
Kind, Lovable, 38

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Loving and kind, Confident (but not too over), Capable
sorry i 'm too greedy so i group loving and kind together..

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
still exploring who else can offend me.... the list is expanding

13. What is your ambition?
To graduate and be a great doctor that everyone loves
(but it's hard to please yourself and everyone)

14. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
HOME then buy air asia ticket back :P

15. What dramatic event(s) that you have ever encountered in your life?
my life will be the most boring movie in the world but i am glad to stay this way.

16. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
cannot remember.....

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
my straightforwardness and procastinating character

18. What music have you been listening to recently?
J pop, classical

19. What is your least favourite animal?
cockroach...

20. If one day you couldn't do the things that you are used to doing now anymore, how would you feel?
SUICIDAL ....scarry leh...

I now tag:
Imel
John
Joan
Steph
Alicia KSY
anyone who feel like being tagged by me

haha sorry i break the rules...but u r supposed to tag 8 person

I am BACK with love from Bro

2008-06-17T20:06:00.008+08:00

This is an email from a significant someone.....(since i haven't found one outta familial bond)

1. First of all, in a conflict, never engage in "Childish" self defeating admission like "since I'am blur...." this will only make people impression of you regardless true/false of being "blur" to be more significant.

2.You just need to quote your sources to verify. That's it.

3. Do not use back the word of your aggresor like "BLUR" it only make matter worse.

4. Most important of all never ever say "i am going to save the conversation as proof.." this is the ultimate disaster. You are equivalent to black mailing the other party and have closed all doors for reconcilation. That explains the reaction.

5. You are what you think. "the sadity....does not respect her" is a loser mentality. Think that you are a Champion and you are going to show to the World that you can do it. You have worked v hard and passed the portfolio on 2nd attempt don't you!?

6. People come and go. Who cares what your batch mate think? After all when you join the work force, everything is back to square one.

7. Next time just hold yourself together. This are a series of bad moves that you should learn your lessons from my dear.

Bro

************************************************************************************
altho it sounds like i am alot of fault....but i still really appreciate it.... at least it's constructive :D
straight forward in a constructive but not destructive way.... this is one lesson i have learnt very much from the encounter with my coursemate too. I have too may encounter with emotional terrorism...that made me down for a long time since i come to Australia..... 3 this year from the same person, 1 last year from another person.....each of which my confidence will plunge...each of which i have learnt a great deal that Oxford Clinical Handbook can't offer... ( It is an innate nature of a scorpio to remember such things....esp one who blogs)

This shows A bro who loves his sis....but how can you not love a sis who take this kind of photo for you?!!!

Eligible Bachelor surrounded by 2 scantily Clad "Chun" Chicks >_<

Here is my reply to him

dearie bro

wuay!!! i sent so many emails to u....now then u reply me
i thought u have no time to read my blog d. how r u doing back in spore?

haha, anyways
thanks so much for your advice and encouragement
really really appreciate it
it made my day

heart you

dearie sis

haha....i know gals tend to be abit more mushy than guys too...

I hope you guys can learn from this incident too....blessing from bro & sis love :P

PS: Thanks for those who offer encouragement & reassurance: Imelda, Anita, John, , YX , LCH.etc

I so muz let this out

2008-06-16T00:33:00.002+08:00

YES, i so muz let this out else i can't sleep

juz have an unpleasant encounter with one of my coursemate
i shall be as impartial as possible in reiterating this

it started out as a msn conversation
i mentioned that i 'm doomed cuz the deadline for submission of assignment is in like 7 hours time and i have yet to finish it.

he was shocked because he thought that the deadline is one week later and ask me not to confuse him.

i mentioned to him that i have an instruction paper indicating that it is today. he was really angry and ask me not to confuse him with my blurness.

i ask him to double check with his gf who has done GP term before.
and since he has already completed his assignment what is the fuss about as he can just submit it anytime. but he is really annoyed by me telling him the wrong date ( i guess he really view this assignment very seriously). Somemore the date i mentioned is earlier not later. it's always better to be earlier than latter right!!!!

i said that since i'm blur so next time i wouldn't answer his question.

he said that he nv ask me.

i said even i told him something. he could have double check as i'm BLUR.

i said i'm sorry for causing the confusion. given the situation, it is my fault too but i still think he is too harsh..

he kept on reprimanding me....

i also replied in a light mode (if he doesn't get it) that if it really it's today then he owe me and i am goin to save the conversation as a proof.

guess wat?!!!
F**k off is the reply i got from him.

OMG....i got bullied again.... the sadity of being a transfer international student who failed her portfolio and her batchmate does not respect her....

anyway i'm still glad cuz the deadline is not today.... hopefully. This means i have more time to work on my assignment. :D

Angels in Fast Motion。。。 Nordkraft

2008-06-14T21:30:00.003+08:00

This movie let me have a glimpse into the lives of drug addicts tho i heard of them quite often in hospital. Heard that they have plenty of them in psych ward

Beware some degree of nudity.

Ole Christian Madsen’s Angels in Fast Motion, adapted from Jacob Ejersbo’s novel. it is a gripping and brutal insight into the lives of three young adults, Maria, Allan and Steso, living and coming to terms with drugs, each other and life itself. the show brought us to an adrenalin-fuelled trip through bleak territory, with a jolt of humanity. The drug warrens of Copenhagen are hotbeds of addiction and desperation, teeming with souls in a mad search for salvation. I was hooked on this show as drug addiction is something so common yet i have no exposure in. (of course i have been a very good girl and movie is the outlet)

Maria is a drugs trafficker or pusher frau as she refers to herself, who goes to Jutland and picks up drugs for her boyfriend Asger, who is unable to give her the love and affection she needs. They live with two doped out dogs, large Rottwellers that are continuously high on the hash fumes and the stinking pig carcass that Asger is using for a tattoo canvas. Not exactly an ideal situation. A close encounter with authorities jolts Maria’s perspective on her life and she wants out. Maria falls for another dealer Hossein and her wish to quit the business is put aside while she follows her heart and finds love. To me, she is just falling into another ditch by loving another drug pusher.........

Allan an ex-drug smuggler turned-sailor returning home from a long stint overseas. Once home though his demons return to haunt him tempting him to do one last job.Allan was injured on board his ill fated ship and he returns home showing the scars from his accident, looking to just get on with life and not fall back into the old traps of the drug world he once inhabited, but some ghosts are harder to remove than others. And after a chance meeting with an old time ‘friend’, Frank (Rudi Köhnke), things are anything but safe. Meanwhile he found romance in a new girl and wish to turn his life around for her. This man has guts and he got away with what he does. This is the only character with a good ending.

Steso, an intellectual, god-forsaken and prophetic cynic has two bad habits, one being of the drug kind. The other is that he possesses his childhood girlfriend, Tilde , who has one foot in the psychiatric chair and the other in some dreamy state of yellow and karma. This guy is unique he reads widely while he did drugs. Tilde is trying to persuade Steso to quit drugs; a pastime he enjoys far too much. Daunted by the idea of life without drugs Steso’s refusal to give it all up forces Tilde to leave him. With no shoulder to lean on Steso’s world spirals further out of control. Steso must resist sinking back into his addiction or risk losing the girl he loves. He almost suceeded from his cold turkey. However, when he went back home and found no one there...something just trigger and he injected himself and it finally killed him.

These three lives are intertwined through Asger, the dealer. Maria does not want to make any more trips and that leads to the introduction of Hossein, a Persian moneylender who has more going on than what he lets on to, who is going to take on her role. Allan is forced into doing a job for Frank, of which he borrowed some money from Hossein, and Steso can’t get grip of loosing Tilde and wants to get some oblivion in the way of the pain.

Ole Christian Madsen gives us a stylish and grim movie with a soundtrack to die for, full of hyper camera moves and bouncing POV steadycams,emphasizing the moods in the scenes that truly makes us feel that we are as close to those hash fumes as those barking dogs are. The characters are great and very, very believable in their futile attempts to make sense of the madness in the world they inhabit and the mood is kept light enough that it does not become unbearably grim and too downbeat to alienate its viewers.

Up-close scenes of pupils dilating and needles being injected into veins are shocking but give further insight into the tragic and monotonously dull lives of these twenty-somethings. Excellent handy cam shots accompanied by a funky soundtrack give reprieve from the tragic lives of these fragile human beings and their painful addiction to drugs.

the characters are really convincing. their desires are all so simple. it just that they headed in a different direction that it is hard to turn back... Mayb they are just stereotype...but who cares.... >_<

adapted from various sources eg. monstercritics.com, jaman.com & myself

Hong Lim's Sydney Trip

2008-06-08T18:59:00.003+08:00

29 May - 31 May 2009
We never expected to meet up in Sydney at all 2 years ago in IMU library..... That's life....lotsa uncertainties...

STRESS

2008-05-24T18:27:00.004+08:00

ACUTE on Chronic Stress/Anxiety

1.constant(non-stop) involuntary twitching left lower eye lid for 1 month
disappear when smile or squint. was quite conscious about it when talking to people but am getting used to it. still has occasional twitches now and then.

2. poor sleep quality interrupted by meaningless dream
Meaningless dream is like you even know the dream is so meaningless when you are dreaming *_* stuff so stupid that i wldn't do in real life.................... -_- so frustrated in the dream cuz i know the dream is goin to make me tired the next day....

3.lack of voluntary control once asleep. IN THE PUBLIC
e.g. 1 farted when sleeping in libary.(ppt by eating too much mandarin) forced to wake up to prevent any further embarrassment
e.g. 2 Loud burp when falling asleep in conference. had a good free lunch before that.
e.g. 3 snorted when falling asleep in grandround. wake up on the first sound i made. realise that the reg sitting beside me look at at me. pretended that i'm awake and it's not a snore.

4. distal interphalengeal joint pain

5. Don't feel like going for netball

6. Start to drink Mocca/Latte when you don't enjoy the taste at all but just like the after effect.
6. Cute guys are no longer that cute anymore... >_<.

I figure the stress come from many things
the students
the doctors
the supervisors
the learning plan - this is the major culprit!!!!
the QUM assignment

all these means i NEED a break from the Hospital and the other people.....i need to go SOLO. and meet new people....

That is why GP rotation is just nice for me :D

The people in my GP medcical clinic are very nice. the only down side is that it is in Hurstville (have to travel) and also it is VERY VERY busy...meaning less teaching time and less time for me to interview patients myself. average waiting time is 3-4 hours.....
VERY VERY BUSY is equivalent to McD with Q and people hanging around waiting for their food.

Trivial stuff about myself
i have scoliotic spine
i have huge nasal polyp which develop insidiously.i'm actually surprise how well my body compensates and i'm still able to breath through my nostril.

So you think you can Dance 2008 OZ version

2008-04-28T17:48:00.004+08:00

So this show is finally over
Final four ... Demi Sorono, Rhys Bobridge (front), Jack Chambers or Kate Wormald

& the winner is Jack .tho i think RHys has more public charisma but Jack has better technique
watch their duet dance and u be the judge.
Jack was in red

Jack's video

The judges and host
So You Think You Can Dance judges Bonnie Lythgoe, Jason Coleman, and judge Matt Lee (right), with host Natalie Bassingthwaighte. Jason is like the Simon Cowell but his view are definitely Sharp and True.

here i wanna share some of my fav routines, watching all these is as good as going for a good dance theatre i guess tho i haven been to one before. do bo

Hot (highly recommended)
Sizzling Hot !!! Jemma & Rhys- Break it off - Hip hop # 1 most watched video

Breath Taking!!! Jemma & Rhys - a new day has come - "Contemporary"

Sleek!!! Kate & Rhys - There it go (the whistle song)

Breath Taking for the judges!!!! Kate & Graeme - fix you " Contemporary" # 2 most watched video

Fun!!! Kate & Jack Spiderman
Quickstep

Funk!!! Kate & Jack singing in the Rain

Cute!!! Graem, Jack & Rhys - Hurt something

Lively!!!-Rhiannon & Graeme 4 minutes (Mr & Mrs Smith)

JFH A fusion of the standard dances styles of Jazz, Funk and Hip Hop.

Sharp!!! Vanessa & Henry - Lo lo Dzama "Samba"# 3 most watched video

Kate & Rhys - Give it to me

Not so Hot but still recommended

Jack Solo Mission Impossible

Rhiannon Solo 1 Thing

Demi & Jack - Brainstorm # 4 most watched video

Rhiannon & JD- Somebody Told Me Jazz

Rhiannon & JD- What's your Flava Popping
Some with Pop Songs
Pump it - BEP
Untouched by Veronicas
Hot by Avril

Group routine
i like gp routine as well

Top 4 Impacto

Top 4 Grand Finale

Top 8 song of the heart

Top 10 Hip hop is dead

Grand Finale Top 10 I got rhythm - sorta 60s-70s theatre

Top 12 Blackbird

Top 16 Sing Sing Sing

*It's such a pity that some of them don't have the original music.

Guess Performances
Hip Hop breakdance
Tap Dogs

Caleb THe young promising dancer who is not qualified but there is so much fuss about him.
i think it's a marketing strategy.
his description by the judge
15 year old boy with a jump that rivals any male dancer in the world , the flexibility & line of a prima ballerina and the performance maturity of a 30 year old. Caleb during audition

his guest performance with damien leith song in Grand Finale

i'm wondering if Caleb was qualified, will he win instead? >_<

Foreign Films

2008-04-19T21:49:00.005+08:00

I juz love foreign films.they are just so true, raw and not as corny as Hollywood or Hongkie Show moments ago, i just watched this
Jeux d'enfants (aka Love me if you dare) is the story of a game of truth or dare gone wildly out of control. The games (jeux) begin when Julien and Sophie are children (enfants), but as they grow older they intensify and become more twisted and dangerous. Although they are in love with each other, the game later dictates their future, and the dare even goes as far as hurting and tricking each other. Tells a story of two adults who never wanted to grow up and are getting this big burst of adrenaline out of this game. Their likewise escalating love strives to be expressed in a way other than through the games.

The overarching theme is of a struggle between childhood playfulness and the expectations of the adult world: the characters age significantly over the course of the film, and Julien is forced — several times — to pick between the rose–coloured world of fun represented by Sophie, or the expectations, demands, and successes of the adult world represented by his father and his eventual wife and children. Sophie, meanwhile, is content to live her life — as she puts it "a cream puff", becoming a trophy wife to a successful (soccer) player. Nonetheless, she keeps returning to Julien, despite her superficial satisfaction with what she has.

Keystone to the film is a small tin box in the shape of a carousel. In a flash–forward segment, the film opens with a shot of a construction site, with the box partially enveloped in concrete. Once we return to the present, we see Julien initially receives it from his mother, and upon seeing Sophie being mistreated by other children at school, presents it to her. He hopes she'll lend it back on occasion, but she demands he do something daring to prove he really wants it. Thereafter, the two are engaged in a playful rivalry: whoever has the box can force the other to perform a dare to get it back. The film ultimately ends with a nearly identical shot to the opening, with the box once again partially enveloped in concrete.

The film's visual style also reflects the setting: while Julien and Sophie are children, the world is slightly fuzzy, and everything is bright and colourful. As they grow older, the film becomes sharper, and the colour more realistic. In a hypothetical scene of the two as an elderly couple, the film again becomes fuzzy, but now has a definite sepia tint.

-adapted from Wikipedia

French longer version trailer

The Official Website

I totally loved the experience of this movie... and the conceit of "the game"! BUT what I really liked IS questionable... these were perhaps the MEANEST characters I've seen in a film who WEREN'T "bad guys" in years! That said... THAT'S what I loved! These characters were completely selfish... withholding their feelings from each other for fear of being hurt... but then taking it to another level by dragging innocent bystanders into their game (through marriages that are PART of the game)... Without giving away too much... what I liked about watching this movie unfold is what Hollywood never allows-- sometimes people just suck!

Michael Carlin

I totally agree. i like and hate the anticlimax too. It is especially wicked when they make one party believes that they are so totally in love and is goin to reconcile but then strike back with an even more evil revenge. it's a vicious cycle. sometimes you are so bored of hollywood romance movies, this actually come as a surprise to me. Though the "happy" ending is artsy, atypical and symbolic, it's still abit sad tho.... shall not spoil it for you...

Getting my life back together...

2008-04-06T19:28:00.011+08:00

MEDICINE
The start of the medicine term is what i call LIFE
medicine is more relaxing as compared to surgery... start later in the morning, can go home on time....... the renal team is nice.....welcoming to students.....less "bitching" than surgery :D
and i don't agree with the idea of totally hating one specialty....i heard surgeon to be frens saying that they hate medicine and ward round..... but when u come to think of it...it's like a division of labour....you can't totally hate something when you can't survive without it.........
anyway....my renal knowledge is deteriorating day by day....felt like revising....but is overwhelmed by the different assessments : case presentations, Quality of Medicine assignment, Tutorials, Attendance & participation in the team, blah blah blah.etc

Year 6 under the old course is so lucky....they have no obligations to participate in the team and ward round as it's not part of their assessment....so they have the liberty to MUG at home.... but i don't know what will they miss in return.
while the poor year 5 have to juggle the clinical participation and mugging altogether....and most of the time after my clinical participation, i'm already too KO to mug >_< really need to adapt and learn how to study effectively man!!!

NETBALL
as i was contemplating how to keep myself fit
i have 3 choices
1. join the gym
2. buy a treadmill (same price as one year membership of gym) since that's the only thing i use in gym so better long term investment.
3. run to bondi again like last year (which makes me have big calves.... plus i have to fight with time as have to get back before sunset so that i don't scare myself at the cemetery.

in the end i didn't choose anyof them but i have involved myself in some netball stuff
--> first i spent 80 bucks to join netball thursday social as i figure i don't want something too vigorous for a start..... but in the end it can't satiate my desire to perform
--> so i spent another 210 bucks to join the winter comp.... felt better becuz have training....but still not quite there yet...

my conclusion is that the more i play....the worse i felt, the more frustrating i get..... kept making those shitty passes that don't reach my teammates......kept having obstruction/contact till i don't feel like doin active defending anymore. Wing D is hard to perform for me....
given my like ~7 years experiences of playing netball casually....i never felt so bad before....... : (

our thursday social team is like a rojak of players....obviously no chemistry since it's the first time we play together....no training as well so how can have CHEMISTRY LEH?!!!! pple r not keen on training too. we still lack some chemistry and strategic positioning. won the first game but lost the second week....felt that coach shld teach us on strategic positioning instead of basic stuff like knowing your boundaries and run and stop -_-
but i do see some potential good players as they have the HEIGHT

playing with angmos is definitely harder and different fr asian
cuz they are taller, more macho and thus faster. Nevertheless, i still enjoy playing netball as a form of exercising cuz i get to upgrade my skill at the same time.

* last week was the record week when i played 5 days of netball straight fr wed to sun....anyways: We won the the Sydney Malaysian Students Sports Carnival Netball. it was well played in the sense that it's skillful with minimal catfighting for the games we played and the opponents felt happy playing with us... that's how netball shld be. Kudos for the MSO netball gals. stayed back after the game to watch bball....but totally no " kick" so left halfway.*_* I have no idea who is the overall champ.

Unprepared for pic

There you go!! the FULL TEAM

The 2 towers >_<

The 2 sassy goal attackers

The Sassy Goald Shooters and the Macho Goal Defenders

Check out Georgia....the pretty ref wearing the UNSW netball uniform at the sideline *o*

Meijiun: Yeeks!!!! Cockroach!!! *Jump*

Looking at the Sassy Attacker doing their stuff while we rest our legs....

Yeah....another effortless goal....ok time to stroll back to starting line again

Run for the ball!!! (Why am i not running as hard as the others ? :P)

fyi:
MSO is UNSW
SUAMS: sydney uni
MASA: Uni technology of sydney
MSA: Macquarie uni

Molly
previously i was having some trouble with Sheila which is actually getting better as she's slowly opening up to me. However, Kate strongly suggested me changing so i oblige.....so
here she is Molly- the oldest resident

second time i saw her juz happen to be her dining time. which is good in the sense that i know wat is she going thru everyday but bad in the sense that other residents are curious about me. but i don't want my attention for Molly divided.

so today i went, brought her out to the garden and driveway on her wheelchair for some adventure. but i got abit scared....cuz she got a little bit confuse and thot we were lost at somewhere in bondi junction.... -_- she kept pointing me to some random places telling me that thats the direction to Oxford Street... apart from the disorientation. she also had hallucination, saying that there is a book on the floor or some little boy sitting somewhere or someone callin me but infact there's none.... anyway i juz play along with it.... accordin to the nurse she was quite down the whole day as she wants to go home.
she had typical symptoms of dementia: depression, hallucination.etc. i guess antidepressant will really help her.....
plus she can't see and hear well so most often our conversation doesn't flow.
i had a feeling that she's getting abit upset of getting lost on the "oxford st" while we were actually still on safe premises( she even suggested me asking someone for direction).
i illegally pluck one flower for her from the garden. isn't she cute....but as you can see she looked so confused... i was alil bit worried that bringing her out may upset her more....so i wheel her back again.... then i join her in the Rosary Benediction Mass which i pretend to be "closing my eyes to pray" in fact i was actually dozing off...........which the sisters noticed straight away.... :P

oh no....come to think of it...she may be delirous instead of demented. cuz i saw her 2 weeks ago she wasn't that bad and she is having some sort of diarrhea....better call back tomorrow morning and ask.

Easter

2008-03-20T08:05:00.009+08:00

AMC exam
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17th march
Went to AMC clinical exam last sat to become SP (simulated pt)
AMC exam is the entrance exam for foreign docs who wanna work in OZ, be it you are a lowly intern or a highly consultant overseas.
actually the exam consists of a MCQ and the clinical exam. how far infront of the Q for clinical exam will depend on how will u do in MCQ.
it's really interesting to be at another end of table
the scenarios were mostly based on GP setting. so beware consultant.....cuz they can be easily outta touch of the community needs :P

i was SP as a mother with a kid with septic arthritis (paeds) (morning session)and also a young lady with psychotic disorder >_< (psych) (afternoon session). These 2 are basically quite straight forward and hard to fail. heard that there are other killer stations such as secondary post partum hemorrhage and oso the infective endocarditis. there are 16 stn altogether and doc has to pass 12. and oso pass at least 1 paeds and 1 ONG . most docs are very knowledgeable, the diff lies in their approach to the patients. in order words, it's like customer servicing. cuz everytime the doc leave the room, the examiner will ask me how do i feel. it's so interesting to see different doctors with different approach.

Mom & kid with septic arthritis

1. a doc who act like he's a big doc..... he is physically big as well. can see the sweat mark on his armpit. he's the kind who sit heavily on the chair and then merge with the chair and qiao his leg ( cross his leg) and start his conversation" OK, today i'm goin to...." he told me wat to do most of the time. This is a classic example of doc that don't give me a chance to talk. well if they cover all areas then it's good. if they don't, too bad....but they definitely get mark down on the pt approach part.as SP, we were told wat to answer and what to ask if the doc hasn't address the issue yet.
some of the doc i wanna help them oso cannot cuz they juz keep talking. i juz find it hard to input some questions to them as a concerning patient

2. a lost doc
he looked lost, i didn't know why i got lost with him too..... mayb he's cute(part of the reason) LOL. anyways, he was not very focussed and didn't seem to know what's goin on. so i'm lost in the sense that i don't know when can i find the right chance to input my question to help him to score his content point.

3.shy doc
a middle age lady who look all nice, smily, slow and shy. and not too confident and oso not too sure as well.

4. a super prim and proper doc
a thin small size russian looking guy, with long and stern face. put both of this hands on the table and straighten his back when he ask u qn with a monotonous tone.....
oh my....i so feel like laughing....but i ctrl myself lah.

5. of course there were those good one,
even the good ones they will miss out some points. each good one managed to cover some points that other good ones didn't managed to.

in this stn, to be perfectly good, some minor points to cover like remember to take a brief full overall hx even u already know its septic arthritis fr the presenting complaint. try to ask whether they can go to ED if not, arrange some kind of tpt for them (ambulance). there are lot more details to cover.juz one trick, even if you know wat will their concern be...there is no harm asking.

i wonder whether is it becuz of the exam setting that render the above doc half of wat they normally are.

for the morning session: it was all nice. as i can be a nice pt and try to prompt them with my questions. and my answers were mostly repetitive...
most docs were great that the examiner ( the Albury clinical school incharged) had a strong urge to give them his name card & ask them to work for him.

Critical Error for this stn (critical error is the error that will fail u str away no matter how well u did) : did not admit the kid immediately to hospital

Pscyho patient who has strong paranoia

in the afternoon, as i was reading thru the instruction sheet to be a psycho, i was confused as well. no clear hx given, hahha that's the point right !!!!
well, we are not encouraged to be aggressive psycho cuz it can be very tiring after acting over and over again for 16 times!!!

i wasn't very familiar with what i should do initially so i was a pretty reserved psycho but i slowly warmed up. basically i was a calm psycho. i'm supposed to have some self harm intention too...
i find it hard to help the doc in this stn as compared to the previous one. but later i found something such as kept telling them that i'm worried about my work so i can't sleep....which most of them fail to address anyway ..... (waste my effort)

1. the anxious doc (stuttering)
i guess everyone is anxious.(including me, cuz i have to be really concentrated in listening to the doc and try to ask them necessary qn to bring them back to the point). but this one is so hilarious. he stuttered every 2 words. but luckily he still managed to cover the content points before the buzzer rang. this one i actually pity him and be nicer abit to him :D

2. the consultant looking doc
he looked like he has a certain age and calibre with his white hair, consultant body shape ( not very slim >_<) and also his coat but he didn't do really well. i think partly becuz this stn requires knowledge of OZ psych system (something as " Mental Health Act") 3. the very happy doc a china guy.... oh my...he look so happy & relac. keep smiling when asking me qn. haha i'm supposed to be depressed but .... i'm not that depressed in his case. i actually smile and shake his hand on his way. usually i don't cuz i'm supposed to be Acting !!! i'm such a dedicated actress 4. the fierce looking doc i'm not very happy with this one personally, she gave me a fierce look. COME ON, I'M SUPPOSED TO BE PSYCHO.... YOU CANNOT BLAME ME. after i refused to be admitted, she ignored me straight away and turn to the examiner ..... -_- as compared to this, another doc handled my unreasonability pretty well when i ask her not to be sucha busybody when she ask me how i hurt my hand. she is the best candidate for this stn.

5. The good ones
address my concern : which is my work issues. bonus: offer a solution: counseling (instead of juz hospital admission) but it's abit unfair as well cuz the instructions already contain most of my hx so most pple didn't go back to it again but went straight in telling me about my prob and that i need to be admitted.

6. Doc who gave me a label !!!
most of the doc said" Ms Lina, i think you have psychosis based on your hx and clinical examination". Even i'm SP, i felt damn OFFENDED wuay!!!. i would be either like " huh? what's that" or " i know wat's hallucination but i 'm pretty sure that i don't have that". but there this one doc i can see he is trying very hard to not to call me psychotic. only went i kept kacauing him then he tell me nicely that i have psychosis and explain it pretty well to me.

Critical Error: didn't admit me straight away or let me go home and take my stuff....

most doc will juz kept repeating that i need hospitalisation but none of them actually convinced me......
as a bad pt i will try ways to buy some time & trick them in not hospitalised me immediatly
1. simply just refused to be hospitalised
2. said that i can't skipped work cuz it's goin to make my workplace problem worse
3. said that i need to feed my cat first
4. said that i need to go home to take some stuff first
5. said that i will admit myself and ask for hosptial address

but luckily none of them fall for that. so becuz of the way the marking scheme is drawn out....it is actually very hard for the candidate to fail this stn as long as they don't fall for the critical error and manage to explain mental health act and management well..... the pt approach is not a major component under this marking scheme. according to the examiner, this qn was not drawn out suitably cuz knowledge on mental health act and psycho mx could well be tested in MCQ, not in clinical exam.

lilian was doing the same stn as me at another stream. her examiner focussed more on the scientific part such as mental health act blah blah blah. while mine is more towards pt approach: have they addressed my absence from work (MC), do i need company to go hospital, is my cat being fed at home while i'm away....

heard that they r goin to abolish the exam for those coming from UK and NZ

most doc look Arabish or South Americanish. but language wise so far so good....haha they can understand my asianish english :D

Bondi Hurricanes
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Tuesday
try out free wifi in uni
and then met up juniors at bondi Hurricanes for dinner.

Phase II over and over

2008-03-09T09:50:00.010+08:00

To my dismay, right after 1 - 2 weeks when my school started, i found out that i failed my portfolio....(one of the Phase II assessment). thus i was given around 1 month+ time to redo that with an additional assignment. Totally potong steam (kill my enthusiasm) for the surgical term.

During that period
i can't concentrate on both of my attendance of my surgical term and the portfolio thing
as often when back home fr hospital, i would be too tired to do anything but to shower, cook, eat, watch some tv, surf, stone and try to do some work on computer and fall asleep in front of computer with only 10% of work done by the time i got to bed it's 1-2am. have to reach hospital to go for ward round next morning at 730am, sacrificing my most efficient time of the day. it's like a bad cycle everyday....

and i have not been exercising for the whole 2 months as opposed to my everyday exercise routine during the hols. i lose all the muscles and gain subcutaneous fat. i can't justify myself to exercise when i have so much work yet to be done. i'm totally inefficient.

therefore i decided to take one week off to do my work slowly....
seriously i dont know how can i cope when in the future similar situation arises. i can't possibly juz take one week off work to deal with personal crisis right?!!!!

anyways, i juz wish that i can pass and wanna thank those who help me in one way or another

1. My friends: people who offer me their portfolio ( kitty, katherine, lilian, sarah, karli.etc)
as Terence would say, not many pple would offer their portfolio.... that's how the way it's like in this competitive aselfless world.

2. Assignment advisor-Dr S. Wong for guiding me through and reviewing my assignment despite his busy surgeon schedule.He gave me so much confidence in completing my assignment when i know the things i have written were on track, even when his reply is juz one sentence. when he saw me he would ask how's everything and am i ok. obviously he can see the gloominess and grumpiness looming on my face. Often I can't resist his always smiley face so i have to give back a forced smile and replied i'm OK.(I figure that's how the way it works in angmo country). The reassurance from his smiling face is priceless and luckily it's not the 笑里藏刀 type (dagger in the smile). 笑里藏刀is the type that will send chills down my spine.... u always see them in examiners........
i embarrassed myself by being too absent minded and forgot to attach my assignment in one of the emails.

i was fortunate to have one separate assignment advisor as compared to my other fellow colleagues. Dr Wong is one of the rare JEWELs in the hospital ( i shall explain the term jewel later)

3. Dr P.Harris for being my portfolio advisor. luckily i have 2 face to face sessions with him as i don't get what he meant in his first email review of my portfolio. meetin up with him where he guided me through step by step on each content point, probing me to think and giving me some constructive ideas really helps alot. i officially concluded that reviewing thru email where you have that special column on the side don't really help me much. this is becuz i always don't get wat they want from that 3 sentences remark. that was what happened during my first submission to Prof P. J. i should have arranged a personal meeting instead. I think Dr P Harris is the overall portfolio coordinator as i will see lecturers pop in to collect their share of portfolio to mark every now and then from his office.
Dr P Harris is incharged of medical education where he was in melbourne presenting to the rest of the world about this new system of assessment last week.
According to him, there are only the Brown's uni, USA; Calgary uni, Canada; Eastern ....Uni in UK that have the same system where Calgary is still pretty much still a traditional system.

4. Learning center language advisor, Helen. I had 3 meetings with her. again, she's like a confidence builder as well. though she's not the super frenly type but her help and patience are invaluable. but pity she was abit confused initially on how the assignment n portfolio work.

5. Sebastian the acute surgical team registrar- my supervisor for acute care attachment.
thanks for his kindness for letting me off. oso his encouragement on asking me not to give up. obviously he misunderstood lah, i m not goin to give up on medicine. but he meant well. he is another piece of JEWEL in this hospital. i always feel that these pple from overseas can relate to our situation better. He is from india. He is this layback and sleepy looking guy, can be grumpy sometimes but man his clinical judgement is good and confident (lotsa overseas doc though older and more experience but hold lower position then the OZ pple as they have to retrain from bottom again)

6. Joan for being my IT support when my connection was so shitty last minute. She helped me hand in my portfolio all da way from Melbourne :D my portfolio file went detour leh >_< She oso pop in once in a while to chat with me,l scold me for watching tv, listen to me complain and complain to me in return.

7. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, my fellow comrades who offer encouragement and advice every now and then :D we shall have a celebration after all these k? Malaysian BOLEH!!!! and juz a random note, hopefully malaysia system will improve after this election. if not for all these people, i will be

as lost as a dandelion 蒲公英 in the middle of Sahara Dessert.
"You are strong but you have no idea where to go........."
Now the lost dandelion has the help from different elements,
oasis is not far from sight anymorei believe i can pass as far as i can remember i haven gotten any weird dream that i fail as last year i dreamt that i fail which actually came true. some of my dreams are like premonition of my future - be it significant or insignificant. i always experience the phenomenon of DeJaVu

SURGICAL TERM
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Now in year 5, i finally feel that i'm doing real clinical stuff. and why only now??!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my surgical term is coming to an end soon. this coming week is the last to go.

As i have mentioned previously, i was a bit lost with cardiothoracic. i am obliged to stand in cardiothoracic surgeries as only right after 3rd week into the attachment i realised that there isn't much ward stuff goin and the only way to let my supervisor know my existence is to be in the theatres. there is not much i can do in the theatre but juz STAND and WATCH which eats up lots of time and energy too. by right, i can try stitching up the leg. but there are the eager training surgical registrar and resident hogging the place and refuse to juz let me to have one chance of touching the forceps. :( . i promised that i wldn't be like that in the future. just one chance will be enough to make a medical student's day. same thing happen to my fren in colorectal, there is simply no space for her to even watch when the pt has 3 pple: fellow, reg and intern peering over in his abdomen. anyway, i do learnt something by observing the surgeries.

in cardiothoracic, i have found another piece of Jewel - Sub (a cardiothoracic fellow from India) . he is this humble guy who is helpful and willing to teach.
when into the acute care, i try to keep track of the pt under the care of the team. it's way too ambitious to take a hx from all of them. but at least i know what's goin on with their conditions and management. the 2nd week is the time i took off. i came back on 3rd week, feeling more energised and directed. i managed to assist in an appendicectomy when sebastian offered me to.
luckily in the team there is only one reg, one senior resident. i hope that my colleague who is doin the same attachment wldn't think i'm depriving her of her chance...

you see.....that's wat is happening around. competition everywhere for a chance of exposure and training.

JEWELS
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there are the existence of nasty/not so frenly/welcoming pple but the nice people that I met once in a while is what keeps my hopes up that is why i call them the "JEWEL" in my medical encounter dictionary. mayb i shld get some medical terms to describe the rare jewel instead eg. phaeochromocytoma >_<

1. Dr Wong who is not hesistant to flash his megawatt smile to even students like me

2. Sebastian- who let me tag along him even during his worst time when his resident FFK him during low activity day

3. Sub- who is a rare Jewel amongst the overeagerness of other people. he is willing to teach even my knowledge is like shit.

4. Sam- the cardiothoracic ward assistant who always say hi to me and offer me biscuit and milk juz when i was hypoglycemic. she is one of the rare few who actually respond to me when i smile to her. some pple juz sorta ignore you mayb becuz they r shy or they think you are too insignificant.

5. Kevin - a resident who patiently taught me ABG and cannulation which i found very comprehensive (when my own resident MIA).the ultimate time is when he took 3 med students thru ABG (ABG + students = multiple tries = time consuming). he also told me how to deal with distress patient. He has this stereotypical outlook of a doctor: tall, confident, guy.

i juz hope that this world is not too judgemental in terms of appearance. Else it will be to my disadvantage: i am a girl, i'm a asian, i'm short ....... so do i look like a doctor? >_<

GREETINGS
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one thing i found interesting in angmo country is that their
"how are you" = "hi"
actually, i dont' see the point of asking "how are you" this way when everyone is juz answering" fine, thanks" without even looking at you. you might as well juz say hello, hi, elo, yo or even wassup!!!
that is when i was glad when i asked "how are you" to one of the jewels, he actually indicated that his day is not too good....tt's the way mah... not good means not good lah, why answer the standard "fine thank you...." total fakeness.

unfortunately, i 'm part of that fakeness as well as i answered "i'm good. thank you" to dr wong as i don't want him to worry. *grinz sheepishly*

CRITICISM
************

one of the unpleasant things was during the my oral presentation with dr H. He kept interrupting and didn't even let me finish my presentation cuz i was too lousy. it is a total demoraliser. i know i'm not good but please at least let me finish mah.... : ( in the end he ended up presenting for me. i know he meant good but i juz don't like this approach. Anyway, i guess the seremban folks have many more such unpleasant encounters than me. mayb one year being angmo country has sorta blunted my toughness to this kind of criticism. cuz angmo country always give mild comments. For eg. fellow colleagues who did something badly even i as a medical student oso don't think warrant the standard but then the doctors will comment oh " not bad not bad" -_- this kind of cocoon has its pros and cons. i think that you need to strike a balance to let the students to know what's wrong yet not to be too demoralised.....

Gambate for my last week of surg!!! Gonna miss it.

Sakuran 恶女花魁

2008-01-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

I shall not talk much about this movie but its OST since you can easily search about it in Wiki
can you imagine the music being put in a movie about Oiran(the prostitute geisha). supposed to be very traditional and exotic right. just listen to the OST - it's so different that you will never expect it to be in Sakuran. surprisingly, it blended in quite well....in fact, it made the movie better and more exotic .if i'm not wrong it has some latin element inside too. it's the music, currently playin on my laptop now. i realise that human's mind is ever changing, i'm a very good example. i like things that are different but yet not too far away from the norm. the music on top of my playlist is ever changing. Ringo Shiina did a good job!!!

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The Clinical Starts Now

2008-01-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

Oh my, with much anticipation.... the clinical time is finally here
but the first week of clinicals is really not as wat i was expecting......
i was lethargic and tired becuz i wasn't used to waking up so early to go to ward round.

i am actually abit guilty that i wasn't really involved in the ward.
well...to give myself a little excuse
i slept late+ woke up early+ it's the time of that month + there's some factor of adjustment= lethargy

the consultant surgeon of the cardiothoracic team was not back from holiday. thus the ward was pretty quiet. but i know i shld be more proactive in terms of learning. there's so much more in the ward to learn other than the Operating Theatre but i'm juz too tired.
also reading thru the program guide has stressed me out as well. there is so much to achieve.

when arranged tut was cancelled bcuz some big shot kidney transplant is happening and all registrars and consultants don't wanna miss it. i felt so dumb standing with the rest of the lost med students in the middle of gen surg ward. waiting and asking blindly. and everyone we asked is as lost as we are. gen surg ward is so crowded that i can't wait to get out of it.

hopefully, next week will be better. hoepfully, i will have a clue of where i am heading to.
i shall stop whining here. everyone has their own problem. while mine seems the whole world to me, it may be juz a tiny little biji sand to others.

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Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
Will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime X 8

i juz wanna say that whoever i have neglected unknowingly, i'm so sorry. the time when u needed me most, i'm not there for you. i'm so sorry. i'll make up for it.
but at the same time i need some truth and openness here. if you don't open up, i'm not always by your side, how am i supposed to know that you are in trouble.........

i can always be a listener....is that what you prefer?!!!!
i know advice is always hard to take......but that is what i feel is most productive......
but it doesn't seem to register in you...........
i really hope that you shouldn't distant fr all of us just because of one event of misunderstanding....
that's all i have to say for now.

some how i felt hurt when i found out bits and pieces by myself that you did not want to meet me. well...u could have just told me up front instead. well at the same time, i don't wanna hold too much expectation of you as i always advice you to. in fact, there's nothing much i could do about it. it's all up to you...........

Germaine's 23rd Birthday

2008-01-27T19:09:00.001+08:00

We surprised germaine at Jujus, a Jap restaurant at Kingscross. it's the first time of me being at the infamous Kingscross. anyways, i became the photographer during the dinner as i realised how important is it to capture the moment for the bday girl. it's also nice to see everyone again after the long holidays.

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yx, sarah and me bot a cute jap porcelain doll that resembles germaine. (with brown lon ghair and fringe) haha, we didn't know actually there's this secret compartment in the dooll that you can put your secret till germaine told us :P

The Day before Uni started...

2008-01-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

lch, yx and me went to the FGS branch of "temple" at Chatswood
fyi: FGS also owned the Nantian Temple at Wollongong (the supposedly biggest temple at South Hemisphere)
i joined their youth group activities, and help them decorate theFo2 Tang2 佛堂 with CNY stuff. problem is we gotta handmade them with color papers.... after much brainstorming, it's surprising how well it turned out to be. well at first i thought the best CNY deco r those that we can buy outside....but from those raw materials we can actually make wonders.

after that we get the nun-incharge to pray for us-med students and doctors for our studies and exam.... the nun was so distracted during her 心经 by the people who volunteered to paint the fo tang cuz the paint was dripping everywhere on the floor. she actually wondered away while still chanting it. actually it's the first time that some one chat for me, a pretty new experience
i think it's sad that buddhism symbolic places have become commercialised overtime. i'm not particularly targeting at any organisation. it's the same everywhere now, even in msia and china.....well....i guess there's no way it's goin to affect my connection with the inspiration from buddha even if i don't pay them donation or buy their joss sticks. but it's juz disappointing how they taint buddhism....
well.....i guess those people need to make a living too >_<

just something to share.......
while i was young....i will juz stand infront of buddha statue, closed my eyes and joined my palms as told by my parents, wishing for something without realising what's the true purpose of it.....i guess many of us are still doin that....but infact if you look closely at the teachings.... they never ask you to wish for something and they never really say that they will grant you something. it's juz that those buddha teachings actually guide you through your difficulties. there's no one big person up there looking after you and granting your wishes. you actually need to work your way through and somehow those different chant that contains the teachings will help you thru.
but another thing that puzzled me is that those chants are in such complicated chinese which some words i have never ever seen in my life. by chanting it 1000 times in a day as some politician may cliam. how is that going to to help you. how are you goin to be enlightened when you don't understand the chant. anyway, i guess there's when unibud talk comes into place. i have never been to any of them....but i wondered whether they do explain the meaning of the chant.

well.... my parents or the older generation have a different understanding of these kind of stuff. i think it's an age thing again. we shall see in my future blog 10-20 years down the road how my views may change.

anyway, my dad actually made a wish infront of the buddha that i can graduate successfully as a doctor. well.....if watever my interpretation is wrong... i'm in deep shit bcuz buddha is not goin to grant my dad's wish. well i guess buddha is kind enough to pardon me for this state that i'm goin thru....:P

after that we went to LCH's fren's place, the wife prepared us some special delicious Bangladeshi savoury!!!

Jewish Museum and MCA

2008-01-27T15:45:00.000+08:00

i heard about the Sydney Jewish museum & Museum of Contemporary Art MCA from jacq. finally, i manage to go to the 2 places that i always wanted to go to during the hols on the 15 jan 08. i dated Ping and we headed on to these 2 places

we stayed at the Jewish Museum at Darlinghurst till after lunch and went to have lunch at my usual thai place at Darlinghurst.

it was indeed an eye opener. entrance fee is 7 dollars for student - totally worth it. it is very nicely presented. and we join a guided tour with a holocaust survivor. she spent very little time on the culture and settlement of Jewish people in OZ.

their wedding under the symbolic canopy

the special dinner on one of their special day which i can't remember what it's called
Early Jewish settlement In George St sydney

instead, she talked most about her holocaust experience with the support of the display in the museum. all her most terror moment was in Aushwitz- the Nazi concentration and extermination camp. where one side is the gas chamber another side is factory where the workable people worked in. on arrival, the people were divided into 2 group. one will go to the gas chamber, another will go to work. She mentioned that her biggest mistake is that she didn't hold on to her mom during the division.... and thus her mom went to the gas chamber. every day working, the girls can smell the charred smell of human flesh from the incinerator. well... she's pretty luck otherwise as she reunited with her dad and bro in the end.

one part of the museum that is nicely done is the part about Millions of tears for the Jewish young kids who sufffered from the holocaust- THe Chilren's Memorial. they actually has a glass bowl full of water with droplets of water dropping from the top signifying the millions of tears shed. the colorful boxes contain the pictures of the kids.
during the time, the young, old and the weak (handicapped) were killed unquestionably. leaving the workable ones

the torture camps as red dots all over europe

this trip has definitely enriched me with more historical knowledge which i wasn't really interested during the 2nd decade of my life. surprisingly, i find myself more interested in these on my 3rd decade of life...out of my own pace instead of under the pressure of history textbk and exams. ( i think it's an age thing). at home, i went on to research more about jewish and why the race faced so much hostility since long long time ago. well, i found out that all these is becuz of the biblical teachings ( that's wat i read fr wiki. that jewish pple somehow caused the death of Jesus....thus leading the thousand years of ongoin hatred against jewish from the christian including during the Crusade.

well....i'm not sure about how the bible actually influence people or the people are juz using it as a rightful disguise for their crime...... well...if it's really the bible that affects the pple to commit those act of killing.....i seriously think that it's very sadistic & saddening......for such a sophisticated religion to culture such naive believers......

pardon if any information i stated is wrong...cuz i juz googled them so may have some fallacy.

actually i'm not allowed to take photos in the museum. but i secretly took some. and we were caught red handed by the security guard. while complimenting how nicely done the displays are that we couldn't resist taking photos :P when i ask him why.... then he said it's for security reason....well, then i think it's alright for me to take photos cuz i'm not a terrorist or neonazis or something lidat and i'm definitely not taking photos of the emergency exit and strategic location to place bomb.

the artsy pic at darlingurst i took when waiting for bus to go to circulay quay

the street performance by the aborigines which i found very interesting
the fusion of aborigine instrument and techno music
i have always wanted to post this up.

after that i went on to MCA!!!!- Musuem of Contemporary Art

in fact the weather was so hot that me and Ping bot icecream and sat at the ferry terminal to eat while watching the Mathilda cruise came and went.

again we can't take pics in the MCA & the supervision is really strict. (entrance is FREE!)

the exhibition tat left the deepest impression on me was by Shahzia Sikander- pakistani female artist. her artwork is at the groundfloor main hall -her artwork has the fusion of culture(animal, people), contemporary, girly bits of flowers, butterflies and birds and other detailed stuff such as those complicated pattern which is quite " in" now - that i think i would be really surprised if a man can do that. she actually painted the big wall at the main hall by her self

she oso made those abstract animation(which i can't really appreciate, personally i don't think it's nicely done mayb it's not her forte) as well as a video of her dancing slow contemporary move on her art piece- which captures every visitor's attention.
click here to see snippets at MCA
Shahzia Sikander homepage

Below are the closest i can found that resembles those displayed in MCA

my favorite piece is something like the above two pieces except that it's rounder in shape and more pinkish. i would like to hang it in my house....mayb next time when i became a rich woman i'll go to those art gallery or auction house to hunt for this piece :P

Pleasure Pillars , 2001
Vegetable color, dry pigment, watercolor,
ink and tea on wasli paper
12x10"
Collection of Amitta and Purnendu Chatterjee, New York

another striking one is Julie Rapp- Body Double
who uses her and other women's bodies to create an exhibition depicting her empowerment of being a woman. the most publicised piece which we can see all over sydney's bustop is the one with woman's feet growing out fleshy heels...
Overstepping 2001
MCA website

after that we went to kevin's bday dinner at Ubud restaurant (indonesian cuisine), Maroubra.
the attendee were: kevin, angel (kev's "sis"), john, jacq, imel, me
juz happen on the day, i oso received the postcard fr bro all the way fr bali, tellin me about his adventure in Ubud.
Ubud is a town on Bali island

Happy 2008!!!! The Time of Our Lives

2008-01-02T19:30:00.001+08:00

The TIME of our lives is the SLOGAN of this year Sydney New year eve fireworks theme 2007-2008.there's this rotating hourglass lightwork centerpiece in the middle of Sydney Harbour Bridge that will shoot out firework itself. this year, the bridge is the centerpiece with 4 other spots along the river shooting out fireworks. so in total there are 5 spots shooting fireworks. the fireworks lasted 12 minutes. GooD Work. heard that it took them 15 months to plan it, meaning they are now in the middle of preparing for next year's fireworks too. >0<

Part I of the fireworks showed on the TV

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Part II

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i was at jac's place. while watchin it on the wide screen flat screen lcd tv we oso can watch it fr faraway at the balcony.

i would say the fireworks is the nicest and the most magnificent in the whole OZ and the world and it's oso the nicest i have ever seen in my life. well, i definitely will like to watch it on the spot but then it's so crowded (one million pple crowded in CT, MADness) . some of my frens managed to get a good spot at Mrs Macquarie Pt in the early morning and they stayed there till midnight....that definitely needs a lot of my perserverance. there are 40 vantage points to see the fireworks and many pple were turned down as it's full d. tho at home, we can watch the bird's view of the fireworks from the helicopter being broadcasted on tv. watching on the spot is always different. as i have privileged to experience that in Spore NDP 8 years ago.

i have this dream (juz dream) well...u see if u don't wanna squeeze with the crowd....one way to do it is to get a yacht. mayb have a dinner and champagne with frens then when clock strikes 12, we can watch the fireworks erupt right above us w/o squeezing with other pple on the land. then when we wanna go home....we can juz "drive" the yacht back to a port away fr sydney city (that's prolly where we came from too) dont' need to fight with the crowd for buses and overpriced cab. oso dont risk any random pple attacking u with beer bottle. LOL

another more luxury way is to juz get a place at Woolloomoolo... ( the place beside harbour bridge over the north side of sydney. can juz watch it at my balcony.....hohohohoho

while it's the time of celebration and everyone is so high. there's always controversy: why OZ spent so much money on the fireworks instead of on so many other stuff...

not all the places are as blessed as sydney
some places has terrorist threat so they have to cancel their fireworks. some places rained.... some places are juz too poor to do that....
let me rewind back to what did I do on 31 dec 2007
well i finally finished cleaning my place before we go shopping for the dinner at Coles.
Jac is the Main Chef, in charged of cooking and making the Homemade Gourmet French-Italian Cusine while i'm the chef's assistant (incharge of some cutting and washing :D). after a couple of hours, these were wat we prepared.

Apppetiser

Entree

Main Dishes:

Drinks

no photos of dessert: jellies of different flavour: peaches, mango, red wine. i like the red wine the most. it has the taste of wine w/o the bitterness !!!

while we savoured the well prepared dinner at 9pm, we watched Bourne Ultimatum. after watching the midnight firework, we watched License to Wed.

my New year Day is again another normal day. Again, my visual field is not more than 10metres within my house. i'm such a PIG...

well back to the theme : time of our lives. well....i guess it's the time of my life too....i'm in one of the world most vibrant CT, studying, with a nice place to stay, good frens, good food, good experience, have learnt lots last year. erm...mayb i'm a bit more unfit than last year......and sheepishly i would like to announce i'm still Single....but definitley there are more better years to come, looking forward to it.

PS:I can't imagine the first Chinese TV show i watched on OZ TV is the Hero by Zhang Yi Mou being shown on SBS. it's my first time watchin it tho. plenty of visual effects on the swordmanship and the bright colors and not to forget those "chim" chinese theories that always make the angmo's bewildered....

Melbourne XMas Trip

2007-12-29T16:18:00.000+08:00

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This is a inpromptu trip. We book our flight and accomodation one week b4 the trip :P
Well….as expected most cheap flights ( jetstar & virgin) were sold out. Qantas is the cheapest now (ironically). And we are left with flight as early as 6am…
And we book a couple of backpacker hostels luckily one replied :D King St backpackers!!!
Well, we were greeted by rainy weather.

i so didn't expect this in summer. the wind was freezing and i have to buy another jacket. my hands crack instantly. once we reach the hostel we had a little nap b4 we start our journey.

Day 1
1.QV market
QV market is so much bigger, spacious, cleaner than Paddy's in Sydney.
had nasi bryani at the food court. visited the pet shop to see some cute little animals.

emo Jacq

the free city circle tram

2.Flinders Lane - the supposedly artsy place but didn't see much artsy stuff. have to walk carefully cuz slippery.....

3. The Shopping Place
Elizabeth St, GPO (general post office but now a shopping centre)
myers and various shopping centre

as light as feather.....:D

poor horsy, have to stand all day and night even in the rain

4.CHinatown at little bourke St
chinatown is a long stretch of organised shops and restaurant. unlike sydney where it's more scattered. chinatown in melbourne has less boutiques but more restaurant than sydney. had jap dinner at yoyogi

at the entrance of chinatown

L watching you change in one of the chinese boutiques

5. Melbourne Central
Met up with john's hk fren, Tony, went to melbourne central to had dessert at Chillipadi (a malaysian owned cafe). was at max brenner at first but they were too cheapskate to on their heater so move to Chillipadi instead.
ordered the blueberry something. it definitely look nicer than it taste........ the cream is not the refreshing fresh cream, make worse by the original sourness of the berries. could hardly finish it.

6. Docklands night view(equivalent of Darling harbour in sydney).
much more spacious, peaceful, less crowded than Darling.

the cutsy artsy sculptures

Day 2
1. Direct Factory Outlet (DFO) juz at the street behind our hostel.
2. Yumcha went to Chinatown the famous Shark Fin House to yumcha with Tony
3. QV went to Queen Victoria Shopping Centre while John and Tony go play snooker
4. Melbourne Cetral and many more that i couldn't name
5. National State Library.

there's this lady giving speech in front of the library. when we finished our shopping she's still there talking...........

we oso saw xmas carols

RMIT is juz around the corner with it's innovative aka ugly deco :P

6. Little Italy at Lygon St
met up with jacq's fren david and went to the little Italy at lygon st to have dinner.

the guy on the left is the benedict lookalike. the guy even sound like benedict...

after than went on to KOKOBLACK to have dessert. ordered the mint mousse something while jacq order the belgium choc mousse. couldn't finish it again. i realise that i have low tolerance for sweet stuff. but it's interesting to see the hot choc harden on top of the ice cream :D

7. Crown Casino
numerous pokey machine. and the gambling table. we saw someone lost 1100 bucks in juz 5 minutes. CRAZY!!!! i can feel the sinful aura....

me with a fake crown at crown city

8. Chadstone Shopping Centre
the shoppin centre was supposed to open till 6am the next day becuz of Xmas. well it's interesting to see pple stayin awake to shop. i can say i have never seen so many pple in a shoppin centre. it's a total frenzy and HAVOC. so damn crowded
i am so turn off by the crowd to shop. can't wait to get out of it. it's always nice to shop with few pple around and the stocks nicely displayed!!

Day 3
1. St Kilda Rd with nice sea view & luna Park

2. Chapel St (equivalent of paddington in sydney with designer hi class shopping but much more longer and more variety) - we only drove pass

3. Richmond (factory outlet) the guys bot their Country Road Wallet for 20 bucks
4. Smith St - sport stuff factory outlet. bot a pair or normal black FILA slippers (7.5)
*all these place are at the Southeastern area of Melbourne CT
5. meet up with AUnt Maria and family at Taylor's lake. my first time meeting them after hearing much stories about them from my parents.
had dinner, chit chat , play cards .etc

"fighting" with Sarah

6. hang out at Tony's place for a while. see him play his SWORD :D

Day 4
1. Great Ocean Road
it's a 8 hours to and fro journey
we stopped by the Lorne Beach, 12 Apostles, Loch Ard Gorge and took plenty of pictures
thanks Tony for driving!!! while i kept dozing off at the backseat.

very Wong Ka Wei feel....

me with 4 of the 12 apostles

one of the apostles is goin down soon..........

so many flies bugging!!!!

London Bridge

Loch Ard Gorge

Another magnificent view

very LOST

on our way back.....
2. Korean Restaurant
when back to CT, we then went to the Korean restaurant near QV marketrecommended by Tony to have seafood steamboat and korean pancake.

the residents at king's backpackers exchangin presents

3. Victoria Tower
after that went to Jacq's fren's place at Victoria Tower. the view of the CT from the balcony is splendid. to get a place lidat in sydney the rent can easily doubled (800-900)

thanks to this corolla and her owner who teman us for our melbourne trip :D

4. Stay up Late till next day
after that we stay up at entertainment centre to play pool, DDR, pokey machine..... simply CRAZY lol.... (John won 30 bucks !!!!)
and straight away took our flight back to sydney

Day 5
after napping till afternoon, we headed to CT for Boxing Day. again it's people everyday......
headache....manage to exchange present with Jacq finally.

in conclusion:
what's so good about melbourne
more organised, more peaceful, more spacious, have free city circle tram and free tourist bus, more shopping places and variety

what's so bad about melbourne
the drastic weather..... >_< 4 seasons in one day. well i only experienced one season - winter....

The Rest of my Holiday

2007-12-29T15:04:00.000+08:00

The rest are in point form of how I spend my holiday. Surprisingly, I have something to do everyday.

Not so interesting bits.................

-Wake up late, natural wake up!!!! w/o alarm clock. It’s such a luxury >_< -Tryin to plan something, mayb I’ll try to read something, I’ll TRY -Go yx house play piano for a while, before he & sarah left -Badminton -City buy nougat $23 /kg, I bot 2 kg, ask yx to help bring back for me -hang out at bondi with kat, yx, sarah, lil :eat at kamfook - Buy my purplish polyester dress, treat yx his mocha
-Night clubbing at Beach Palace till1am with Imel, yx, Kristen, tom and frens
So hot to club in the summer w/o air con. Juz sweat all over. I so miss the dry ice/aircon in asian club but definitely not the smoke.
-Supposed to buy lindt chocolate at lindt sale and gyming
But teman gary go bondi again (with imel and jacq), as a result gyming delayed
Buy xmas cards, Hop to CT – look at shoes for a while
Turn out lindt chocolate sale was a hoax
-buy groceries
-clean house

More interesting bits....................

FAREWELL IMELDA

-Farewell to Imelda for 1 month well as i'm writing this, she will be back in 2 weeks time, time flies :D

Dinner at noodi noodi with imel at the SPOT. our fav thai place as it's cheap and tasty

Blueberry bagel with cream cheese and chocolate dip at chocolart

Next day : imel, jac n me: Eat at Turkish delight – pide orginal,vegetarian and ham something with all the different dips

Chocolart : the burning incense chocolate - it's quite "in" now. for those of u who don't know wat is it. it's like the incense burner, with candles at the bottom but melted chocolate on top instead. and usually come with metal straw spoon for u.

-Send imel off the next day (Sunday)

Hang out at Jacq’s place for a lil of DOMESTIC TIME!!!!

Make mini cheese cuppie And black bottom cuppies
why the name cuppies
cuz it's supposed to be cup cakes but it turn out smaller and flatter on the metal mould. and looked like cookies instead

cupcake + cookie = cuppies

blendingwaiting....

tada!!!! fresh from oven!

Spaghetti the Jamie Olivier way with spices and lemon zest >o<

Watch hongkie show after that

GYM

I Sign up for unigym 70 bucks for one month. Put my swimming regime on hold till the school reopens.

70 bucks entitle me for unlimited entry to the gym and fitness classes for one month. Will see how it goes and may sign up for another month.

I try out diff fitness classes and these are the ones that I like pilates, body combat, body attack. To regain my stamina, I squeeze in some jogging as well

Finding my attire abit out of the trend. The gals wear tights now (I used to do that in pri school). Well, I can’t now cuz I have saggy ass & short legs so….i ‘ll still have to wear the pyjamas like cotton track pants to camou my minus pt. And no money to invest chic gym wear too.

To my dismay no. 1

I lost my gym card so have to pay 5 bucks for replacement

Dismay no.r 2.

The gym will be closed from 22 dec 07 to 3 jan 08. I RUGI lah!!!!!

But good bah, I can spend the non-gyming times to do some household stuff like blogging. hahha, now i know wat have been stopping me fr blogging, it's gyming!!!!

wow, the fitness class girl instructors remind me of those angmo gurl characters in street fighter like game. TALL, muscular, tone, with long legs. more so when in BODY COMBAT when they wear the wrist protectors and do all the boxing moves. i especially like NATACHIA for her energy & charisma,

REBONDING

I want to rebond my hair as it not only become weird looking It has become unmanageable.

So I did my little recquee trip around for the best rebonding deal

First it’s kingsford

350 for Korean salon

· I would really like to try Korean if not for it’s expensive price cuz heard that their hairdressing is really good.

280 for blue star (nanxing). Strange enuf, I find the hairdresser explaining things to me look like my hairdresser back in hometown.

-then I went to Hurstville (the Chinese pple suburb)

The best deal is 180 with shiseido rebonding chemical (as they promised)

As I heard long ago, shisedo is good stuff. Fren did in msia salon for RM 300+

But according to my mom’s hairdresser fren, the hair dressers out there always bluff u. but wat to do? I’m new here. I don’t know many people to recommend good rebonding deal so have to be adventurous abit loh.

They always say u have to ask the hair dresser to show u the label of the chemical and mix it infront of u.

I will feel insulted if I were the hairdresser thus I’m quite reluctant to do it. Moreover, rebonding is a process of more than 4 hours which means u have to face the insulted hairdresser for that long. NOT GOOD. Well for the benefit of myself, I’ll try to phrase it in a better way to the hair dresser.

Also I would like to do a little hi light for a change. Personally, I like dark purple, but I know chestnut , brown, auburn will suit me most (it’s also the most common colors around for asian gurls). I know it will spoil my hair but I juz wanna give it a lil try and that was why I choose hi light as it’ only involve small part of hair. Mom is tryin to dissuade me from doin that. Shall decide on the day itself.

EASYWAY

Got an interview for the new easyway outlet job around my area

for your information, easyway is a bubbletea franchise with numerous branches in sydney, other brand is virtually non-existent at all.

Happily went for the Easy way interview as I seldom get reply for my application. But the first thing the interviewer did was to dissuade me to take up the job. Potong steam. - _- He gave me a 5 pages recipe to memorise in 2 days. (milk tea, relish tea, shakes, ice blended.etc in dff flavours) the salary for the 1^st month is 8 /hr. 10/hr for the following months.

Wah….i stress again. Somemore, i have to work for Bell’s on the day of quiz. Well, I guess if u see a girl dozing off on the sofa on top floor of bondi, that’s me!!! (no image at all…..)

But after the quiz, I was so relieved and I went back home and pia finish my “ Darker than Black”

But a few days later, I got a call saying that my performance was not satisfactory and I have to attend 2^nd round of quiz. but the day b4 I got a call saying fr my cousin that she’s in Sydney so…..i choose to meet up & teman her and her bf instead of goin for the quiz. Well, it’s not juz about goin for the quiz, I have to be prepared as well………………… temaning my cousin means I have no time to memorise….. actually I was planning to pia on the day itself. Who knows something unexpected juz crop up .

I guess the owner assume that I’m not interested anymore so he didn’t call back.

Mayb I’m half hearted too…………..

The only benefit I got outta it is the recipe as now I know which is the most unhealthy drink and which is the more healthier drink.

Eg. Chocolate shakes

Get a blender and add 150 cc{100cc} (200cc) of hot water

Add 4 [3.5] (4.5) spoons of creamer

Add 2.5[ 2] (3) spoons of chocolate powder

Add …………..caps of fructose

Add…………..scoops of ice cubes

Blended for 15 [10] (20) seconds

Well, I didn’t put all the true values inside. It’s juz an example. Those in [ ] are small, () arelarge. The most front value is for medium size drink

Yaleto Green tea is always my fav but I didn’t know it’s so unhealthy. But heck care….

HANGOUT WITH JACQ

-Go city with Jacq

Kinokuniya, Market City

Sing K – jacq can really sing, esp ah mei’s song!!!! +*+

Walk around in CT
Had dinner at Korean Cya restaurant, love it as always

Hang out at jacq place
See the new lcd SAMSUNG tv (John & Jacq gave me their old tv, YEAH!!!! i have tv to watch d, tho the OZ show is not very impressive)

Play PS3 tennis, Cook seafood udon, Cook fuzhuk yimai, See jacq make red ruby

BIQING & TOBIAS in sydney

Ffk my easyway second round of quiz and went to meet up with biqing and tobias. Met up under the xmas tree at QVB with 15 000 swaroski crystals.

Brought them to Korean steam boat near world sq, after that walk back up north to circulay quay and opera house then the rocks. Then walk back south to darling harbor. Tot my feet gonna break as I’m wearing my boots……. They went on to visit Sydney aquarium so I parted with them. I guess the next time I’ll see them is back in msia. they are getting married on 21 dec 08. Xiao yu getting married on 08 dec 08 too I think. So I have to plan my flight back home and my elective as well so I can attend their weddings. Haa Kinda lookin forward to it…..cuz they are the first few of my mom’s side subgeneration to get married oso meaning that my time is not too faraway…………….

Oh my….i haven had enuf fun. It’s kinda weird to think about marriage and have kids now…………..

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they are goin for a road trip fr sydney to melbourne. i'm goin to melb too but by plane. didn't meet them in melb but hope that they have a good time.

Mercy Arms

I signed up with the Mercy Arms Volunteer Program and they have assigned me to this solitary old lady in Little Sisters of Poor near bondi who isn’t very frenly. The first tot I have is……..OH MY I tot I have specifically mention that I’m not a very good communicator and why do u assign me to such a challenging case. Well, I guess u guys have seen those super duper frenly volunteers on tv show who can make wonders. Who can always make pple smile…..who can make pple open their heart to them…..well….i’m such an opposite of that. I mean I can try but I don’t think the outcome will be instant……in summary, i'm not a very SAINT person

She can’t see and likes to stay in her room and listen to radio and listen to those cassette tape books. Seems to me that she doesn’t really like visitors.

First day

I went with mercy arm person in charge. The old lady did not have a dentures and she will need to get them replaced soon.

She’s not very frenly and prompt us to leave even with the person in charge super frenly character. (oh my, can u imagine if it is juz me…..)

The reason they gave is that she’s a very vain person. (Goes to hairdresser every Friday) . so she has been very unhappy becuz she hasn’t had a dentures replaced

2^nd time Mary was at some lecture so I have to go in myself. she’s hostile again. I tot it wld b better as she has her dentures already. But…..i felt I juz hit a wall…. It’s a 15 min of crap. Mayb I was abrupt. anyway I mention my concern to the nurse – mary. She’s very nice and call to reassure me. She was from Msia too long time ago.

3^rd time

Sister Joan Paul (director of the nursing home) prep her for my visit. I was able to talk to her about her plans to for xmas, Her family.etc it’s around 15 minutes of productive time. I felt so much better after that. But I wonder is it becuz she has to give face to sister joan paul or she is in good mood or she has accepted me……let’s hope it’s the later.

She used to like to read, play tennis, make dresses. She has a son who always pay her visit.

She is gonna have xmas lunch at her son’s place. TBC

will see her again after new year.

Bus incident

There’s one day when I took the 400 back home

At the stop at randwick. An old man fell when the bus suddenly braked. Hitting his hip or something. Didn’t really witness the whole event as I was almost dozing off at the back of the bus. Later on the man become unconscious….well he regained it soon after that. The bus driver immed put the bus to a halt. Get all other passengers down . call the ambulance tho the hosptial is less than 400 metres away. Well as a medical student I tot I could do something, so when he was “ unconscious” I try to check for his radial pulse (good pulse, mayb even bounding!!!), ask if he has pain anywhere, is he feeling dizzy. (apparently he hit his hip, not sure about the head). Well he was able to give considerably clear respond. So I’m pretty sure he’s alright at the moment. he was reluctant to go to hospital.

*Haha later on I only realize that I shld have checked his carotid pulse instead………… wat a “successful 4^th year medical student” I am after all the CPR tut and clinical exam prac ………

Once the paramedics arrive, u can see all the pro action goin on. Paramedics do some pro examination and questioning (tho not a complete one but juz screening I guess, at least he looked confident). The old man immediately become very excited and tell the para everything ……….well…..2 theories I have derived. 1 is the man has become more conscious thus more communicable….or he juz change his attitude towards different people. (passengers vs paramedics)

Anyway when I felt that I’m pretty useless at the spot, I left the bus and complete the rest of my journey by bus 11 (my legs)

South Coast Trip

2007-12-29T14:59:00.000+08:00

SOUTH COAST TRIP

This is the most “dai” trip I have ever had. 3D2N with juz 160 bucks and with Great company.

will upload the pictures soon. i dread the part of organising photos and uploading them

especially we have so many cameras from different people , i have to rearrange them in correct sequence, delete the repetitive ones. the lousy connection makes uploading a chore.............

30 nov 07- 2 Dec 07

below was our itinerary

First day

Royal National Park

Stanwell park look out

Laurence Hargave

Nan Tian temple

Kiama Blowhole

Our little discovery

Nowra, Wollongong

Beach House Near Jervis Bay

2^nd day

Canbewarra Lookout

Tallowa Dam

Kangaroo Valley

Hampden Bridge

Fizroy Fall

And the Bush walk

3^rd Day

Jervis Bay

Kayaking at Huskisson Mangroove

For the whole journey we have been listening to juz one song….yep juz one song ->_< till I know how to sing it.

thanks again for those who organise it and contributed one way or another. i didn't do much for the planning :P

MY 22nd birthday - First bday in Sydney

2007-12-29T13:23:00.000+08:00

While I was all stress up about exam. The birthday surprise really made my day.

Part of me was hoping that it would be more considerate for me to celebrate my birthday with my frens after exam w/o the exam stress but part of me want that celebration to give my mind a lil break. As u guys know surprises in IMU are no longer surprise it’s juz a matter of how innovative the surprises are.

Well, even there’s no surprised I was planning to make my friends have dinner with me. But I certainly didn’t expect a DIY pizza session at sarah’s place. I was planning to go POW to crash practicing on patients haha but to prevent the conspiracy from being discovered. They tried to prevent me from goin to POW so they have time to buy the presents and ingredients for pizza making. LOL.

The people who came are imel,sarah; the special guests are jacq, lch, jared.

sorry jacq, i stole ur pics :D didn't took many photos on the day. as i'm supposed to be the bday gal, takkan i take the camera go around shooting myself and pple..........
i got a nice bday card, personal msg fr imel and a forever frens notebook for my pressie
jacq oso gave me a set of body shop white musk sumptuous silk lotion, shower gel and soap

i'm supposed to write my reflections and recollections for 2008 in the notebook :D well. the notebook is so nice i don't wanna spoil it with my bad handwriting :P

After chatting random stuff and cutting my bday cake, we went back home

Juz at the second when I step out of the bathtub, our door bell rang. My alarm was raised. Who could have visited us at such late hours. Could it be the neighbours who had their car space parked by someone elses’ car?

But guess who……it’s

Omer and faizan and PING

They brought the blue berry cake for me

i reused the figure 22 candles from ealier :P

pretending to clap stationarily for picture taking

Tricky faizan called to ask me what did I do for my birthday when I was at sarah’s place. So he make sure that I was home when they came.

It’was such happy & memorable day for me but after the day…it’s time to stress about exam. Thanks EVERYONE .

Momentum of Unblogging + olivia's birthday + Studies & exams+ jared

2007-12-29T11:35:00.000+08:00

Wow….it’s been a long while............

Not that I’m not free. I’m supposed to be free after exam. But I’m not sure what took me so long to blog ….mayb it’s called the momentum of unblogging. Now I have broken that momentum. Else I will I have too many bricks to clear.

OLIVIA’s Birthday

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We went to olivia’s bday at germaine and linmin’s place at Kensington. It’s princess’s theme, but too bad I was not informed…hahah anyway I have no princess outfit. But the girls really prepared everything well, the food, the deco, the self made desserts, the Culturally biased OZ game- something like trivia. Most of the time I catch no ball especially when ask about OZ celebrity and song. :P Was really pleasured to be invited by you gurls. We had a fun time!!!

with luvly olivia

the thorn among the roses, seemed like ur bday huh, yx!!! LOL

the princesses

ALL ABOUT STUDIES::: u can skip this part if u are so sick of it.

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~2months ago:

My friends may know that I have been lamenting about the portfolio and assignments. Juz like everyone else, these 2 things have delayed our revision for the OSCE. Mine went even HAYWIRED becuz juz one month before the deadline of portfolio and the 2 assignments (surgical and medical) and 5 weeks before the OSCE, the results of the previous term assignment (OBG) was back. I failed it. Thus I have to redo it. It’s the ethics of nuchal translucency that I didn’t’ do well. After much discussion with the professor, she drew out a new topic of ethics:Assisted Reproductive Technology (including IVF). after I have finished my ethics resubmission. I have decided to take a good look of my medical case which I drafted and put aside. To my dismay, I did it wrongly. initially I tot her renal failure was due to persistent HT thus I wrote up on screening of Hypertension. But instead her renal failure was of autoimmune origin when renal biopsy came out later. thus changing the relation of part 3, I have to rewrite on health care policy on hemodialysis.>_<

So in summary: it’s one 3500 word portfolio, 3 assignments and rewriting part 3 of one of the assignments, squeezing in revision for OSCE, attending clinical classes all in one month!!! How hectic was that!!!

And the 3500 portfolio is not easy task to me. (it took the course of around 4 months but more intense towards the last month

It’s all about reflecting on yourself, ur performance, interaction with people, assignments, project, teamwork.etc felt like shit Can you imagine all the research and writing up work load, reflective emotional load , technical writing skills load, exams stress on me and everyone else. Especially for me where I need to adapt to the culture, making a couple of blunder the past year and writing is not even an easy task to me.

1.First it was drafted, inputing all my raw ideas, examples and experiences
2.Then I put it into comprehensive paragraphs
3.After looking through the example paragraphs
4.I further edited it
5.I sent it to 2 friends to edit
6.I sent it to the associate dean to edit

Editing meaning they give me suggestions and I try to figure out how to make the changes most of the time

Lastly I sent it to my brother to edit ( and he only sent his feedback the early morning on the due day ( early morning I mean 2-3am) thus I have work thru it till 6am till I can’t tahan anymore……….i dont think i was very productive at that time too....

In conclusion: why muz all the work load come towards the end….it’s not that I didn’t prepare early (except the study part :P) it’s juz overwhelming and amazing how all things juz cramp to the end………. No matter how I crampproof it.

Actually during the one week study break is the most peaceful time, no exercise routine (I have given myself 2 months of no wasting time on exercising at all) , no clinical class time. Everyday juz study and that is not enuf. Cuz studying for clinical sciences is juz not enuf. In the end I was left with a couple of days to studying things such as oncology, public health, paeds, obs and gyn…thus I have to be selective. Being selective can be destructive but luckily it’s not enuf to kill me.

One month AGO:::::::::::::::the exam

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Well the big day was on a Tuesday 27^th November at St George hospital. Altogether 5 people at the time slot. My group is full of power book. I’m juz a one year old ASUS. Luckily I’m not the panicky type, I may sound panicky but at least I think that I’m not panicky. Those powerbooks are the type that will u make u panic by sprouting all the power knowledge that you have never heard of and most likely wldn’t be tested too.

I guess the following section is abit dry: I juz write it for my own record.

It’s 6 stations.(2 parts each stn)

1^st stn: syncope history; ECG viva;

2^nd stn: rheumatological hand examination (neva taught in IMU) ; Osteoarthritis and Osteoperiosis viva (management, investigations including interpreting dexa bone scan)

3^rd stn: interstitial lung disease PE ; management and bronchodilator viva

4^th stn: neck thyroid exam; EBV history viva (the destructive unexpected topic)

5^th stn: counseling the mother on antennal screening and diagnostic test ( Nuchal Translucency, Chorionic Venous Sampling , Amnioncentensis); all about progesterone contraception ( oral, patch, injection,IUD,etc - list the benefits n disadvantage) another unexpected one as I am not a hard core type of person, I juz understand the basics or oral contraceptives but not the pros and cons of each and every substitute.

6^th stn:drug (Benzo), alcohol, depression history; eligibility to drive viva – conditional and personal license

Some unexpected stns fr other hospitals:

outbreak of hep A and calculating of odds ratio, malaria life cycle (in OZ!!!), hep A history, pelvic exam

too bad our exams are on the first day. For those lucky students on the following days will get tips from students who did their exams on earlier days.

Post exam PLAY TIME

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Tues:Right after exam:

KTV at big ECHO in CT with yx, zhijun and gang. yx’s eyes paining and become like THIS

scarry huh.....blood shot eyes with discolored iris and deep eye bags w/o visible eyelashes....hohohohoho looked like the combo of sadako and dracula

so left early tho we are allowed to sing till 9pm. Went home, supposed to join imel and jac at their green tea cake making session for Jared

JARED THank YOU Dinner
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Yep talkin about Jared we have been having tutorial with this very helpful intern for the past few months on clinical stuff. So on the following day, we arranged for a thank q aka early bday celebration dinner with him at the Kelly’s Bar Grill at Bondi junction. Jac and Imel decided to experiment baking a green tea cake.

Wed: On the day after exam I try to swim back 2 months worth of exercise while Kristen, imel bot a red FCUK funkish monkeyish T shirt and a esprit leather bag for Jared. At night, the Dinner at Kelly’s was pleasant. Jared was really surprised and elated.

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Thurs: 1^st time working at the Bell’s pharmacy at Bondi junction. Have to learn so many stuff, cashiering, counting back the change ?!!!! and receiving and ordering stock all in one day. Head PAINING

Don’t feel like packing thus I pack till early hours of the next day.

Friday: Set off for south Coast trip. wee!!!!

鸡笼坡

2007-11-17T09:59:00.000+08:00

I found this , interesting. do take a look in you know mandarin. if not ask ur fren to translate for you :P
http://comic.sinchew-i.com/jilongbo/

some snapshots

What type of blogger am i?

2007-10-26T12:15:00.000+08:00

hmm....kinda strange to know what kind of blogger i am with just 4 questions.
but good la....save time unlike some long winded personality tests

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading...
You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose.
Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily.
But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

菊花台 Crysanthemum Flower Bed

2007-10-21T11:43:00.001+08:00

This is one song that me and dad finally has something to agree on in terms of music....hahaha

i think he finally appreciate why i like jay chou so much :P cuz he's simply so talented and same credit goes to fangwenshan i think they live a planktonic relationship.

菊花台

曲：周杰倫
詞：方文山

妳　的淚光　柔弱中帶傷
慘白的月彎彎　勾住過往
夜　太漫長　凝結成了霜
是誰在閣樓上　冰冷的絕望
雨　輕輕彈　朱紅色的窗
我一生在紙上　被風吹亂
夢　在遠方　化成一縷香
隨風飄散　妳的模樣

＊菊花殘　滿地傷　妳的笑容已泛黃
花落人斷腸　我心事靜靜躺
北風亂　夜未央　妳的影子剪不斷
徒留我孤單　在湖面　成雙＊

花　已向晚　飄落了燦爛
凋謝的世道上　命運不堪
愁　莫渡江　秋心拆兩半
怕妳上不了岸　一輩子搖晃
誰　的江山　馬蹄聲狂亂
我一身的戎裝　呼嘯滄桑
天　微微亮　妳輕聲的嘆
一夜惆悵　如此委婉

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and somehow i find some similarity in the gist of this poietic pop song with another Tang dynasty poem

欧阳修 - 蝶恋花·庭院深深深几许

庭院深深深几许？杨柳堆烟，帘幕无重数。玉勒雕鞍游冶处，楼高不见章台路。
雨横风狂三月暮。门掩黄昏，无计留春住。泪眼问花花不语，乱红飞过秋千去。

　　这首词以生动的形象、清浅的语言，含蓄委婉、深沉细腻地表现了闺中思妇复杂的内心感受，是闺怨词中传诵千古的名作。

　　此词首句“深深深”三字，其用叠字之工，致使全词的景写得深，情写得深，由此而生深远之意境。词人首先对女主人公的居处作了精心的描绘。 “杨柳堆烟，帘幕无重数”这两句，似乎是一组电影摇动镜头，由远而近，逐步推移，逐步深入。随着镜头所指，先是看到一丛丛杨柳从眼前移过。“杨柳堆烟”，说的是早晨杨柳笼上层层雾气的景象。着一“ 堆”字，则杨柳之密，雾气之浓，宛如一幅水墨画。随着这一丛丛杨柳过去，词人又把镜头摇向庭院，摇向帘幕。这帘幕不是一重，而是过了一重又一重。究竟多少重，他不作琐屑的交代，一言以蔽之曰 “无重数”。“无重数”，即无数重。一句“无重数”，令人感到这座庭院简直是无比幽深。至此，作者用一句“玉勒雕鞍游冶处”，宕开一笔，把视线引向她丈夫那里；然后折过笔来写道：“楼高不见章台路”。原来这词中女子正独处高楼，她的目光正透过重重帘幕、堆堆柳烟，向丈夫经常游冶的地方凝神远望。

　　词的上片着重写景，但“一切景语，皆情语也”（王国维《人间词话》），在深深庭院中，已宛然见到一颗被禁锢的与世隔绝的心灵。词的下片着重写情，雨横风狂，催送着残春，也催送女主人公的芳年。她想挽留住春天，但风雨无情，留春不住。于是她感到无奈：“泪眼问花花不语，乱红飞过秋千去”，只好把感情寄托到命运同她一样的花上。这两句包含着无限的伤春之感。清人毛先舒评曰：“‘泪眼问花花不语，乱红飞过秋千去’，此可谓层深而浑成。”（王又华《古今词论》引）他的意思是说语言浑成与情意层深往往是难以兼具的，但欧词这两句却把它统一起来。这两句情感层次如下：第一层写女主人公因花而有泪。见花落泪，对月伤情，是古代女子常有的感触。此刻女子正在忆念走马章台（汉长安章台街，后世借以指游冶之处）的丈夫，可是望而不可见，眼中唯有在狂风暴雨中横遭摧残的花儿，由此联想到自己的命运，不禁伤心泪下。第二层是写因泪而问花。泪因愁苦而致，势必要找个发泄的对象。这个对象此刻已幻化为花，或者说花已幻化为人。于是女主人公向着花儿痴情地发问。第三层是花儿在一旁缄默，无言以对。紧接着词人写第四层：花儿不但不语，反而象故意抛舍她似地纷纷飞过秋千而去。人儿走马章台，花儿飞过秋千，有情之人、无情之物对她都报以冷漠，怎能不让人伤心！这种借客观景物的反应来烘托、反衬人物主观感情的写法，正是为了深化感情。词人一层一层深挖感情，并非刻意雕琢，而是象竹笋有苞有节一样，自然生成，逐次展开，在自然浑成、浅显易晓的语言中，蕴藏着深挚真切的感情。

　　这首词意境深远。词中写景写情，而景与情又是那样的融合无间，浑然天成，构成了一个完整的意境。词人刻画意境也是有层次的。从环境来说，它是由外景到内景，以深邃的居室烘托深邃的感情，以灰暗凄惨的色彩渲染孤独伤感的心情。从时间来说，上片是写浓雾弥漫的早晨，下片是写风狂雨暴的黄昏，由早及晚，逐次打开人物的心扉。过片三句，近人俞平伯评曰：“‘三月暮’点季节，‘风雨’点气候， ‘黄昏’点时刻，三层渲染，才逼出‘无计’句来。”（《唐宋词选释》）暮春时节，风雨黄昏；闭门深坐，情尤怛恻。个中意境，仿佛是诗，但诗不能写其貌；是画，但画不能传其神；唯有通过这种婉曲的词笔才能恰到好处地勾画出来。尤其是结句，近人王国维认为这是一种“有我之境”。所谓“有我之境”，便是“以我观物，故物皆著我之色彩”（《人间词话》）。也就是说，花儿含悲不语，反映了词中女子难言的苦痛；乱红飞过秋千，烘托了女子终鲜同情之侣、怅然若失的神态。而情思之绵邈，意境之深远，尤令人神往。

adapted from http://www.mcscn.net/shicishangxi81.aspx

Below are the verse by verse comparison

1. 慘白的月彎彎　勾住過往夜　太漫長　凝結成了霜 =杨柳堆烟，帘幕无重数

1. 菊花殘　滿地傷　妳的笑容已泛黃花落人斷腸= 泪眼问花花不语，乱红飞过秋千去

2. 是誰在閣樓上　冰冷的絕望 =玉勒雕鞍游冶处，楼高不见章台路

3. 花　已向晚　飄落了燦爛凋謝的世道上　命運不堪 = 雨横风狂三月暮。门掩黄昏，无计留春住

i would say 60-70% similarity :D
but obviously 方文山's technique cannot be compared with the more subtleness and deepness which 欧阳修 is trying to portrayed. but we live in 21st century so if 方文山go any more subtle and deeper....no one can appreciate it lah >_< and by the way 蝶恋花 is one of my favorite poem but surprisingly 菊花台is not my favorite song from jay chou, i was juz surprised by his change of singing technique & articulation.

i know 蝶恋花 means the butterfly no matter how they like the flowers they will leave one day and this correspond with the poem of the husband leaving the wife.
but i don't know how the title 菊花台 relates with the lyrics leh >_<

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周董MV拍得屌！　大導張藝謀盛讚「菊花台」

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周董為「菊花台」MV首度彈奏古箏！從來沒彈過古箏的他現場向老師學習基本指法，20分鐘後就自己能彈奏出「菊花台」的旋律，證明對音樂的天份果真是與生俱來！

配合電影【滿城盡帶黃金甲】，這支「菊花台」MV的場景耗資100萬搭建出皇宮的碧麗輝煌，端坐彈奏著古箏的周杰倫置身湖面上，水波盪漾之間朵朵菊花漂浮，營造的淒美感連電影導演張藝謀都為之驚豔！直誇周杰倫在執導影像上還真的有些天份！

聽到這首「菊花台」，所有人都嚇一大跳！因為周杰倫的唱腔在這首歌裡真的不同以往！他細膩的嗓音與咬字上的清晰連作詞者方文山也意想不到！為了寫好歌詞，方文山把【滿城盡帶黃金甲】的電影劇本都看完了，再聽杰倫講述電影的畫面才完成了這首詞。

當初在杰倫只寫好曲時，張藝謀導演一聽到這首歌的旋律，第一個反應就是：「這個就對了！」方文山完成歌詞後，張導在電腦上看著歌詞，心情非常激動，他說：「詞也寫得非常好！這首歌和電影完全地貼切！」後來這首歌錄好了，劇組工作人員和張導聽著歌、看著歌詞，看完之後發現好幾個人眼眶都有淚，大家的感受都很強烈

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and a random note
菊花台is actually a tourist attraction in china

菊花台这是一处以生长大片金黄色菊花为特色的哈萨克草原牧区景观旅游区。它位于西白杨沟的西侧，菊花台景区位于南郊甘沟乡境内，距乌鲁木齐市50多公里为一缓坡倾斜的洪积扇台面，海拔2000~2400米。春夏季节，台面上菊花金黄，百花争艳，蜂蝶纷飞，一派典型的天山草原风光。沟底溪水婉蜒，北面苍松密布，南面绿草丰茂。在平坦宽阔的台面—上，野菊金黄，昭苏紫红，流芳溢彩，把满坡的牛羊点缀成蜂飞蝶舞，尤其是阳光将白云的影子投射在绿草之上流水般款款漫动，更为景区增添了—道别样的景致。漫步其间，不由得令人神采飞扬，遐思翩翩，仿佛进入东晋大诗人陶渊明千古名句“采菊东篱下，悠然见南山”的意境之中。

拋棄愛的干物女vs被愛拋棄的宅女

2007-10-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

~~~~~~~干物女会说"放弃恋爱,过着自我悠闲的生活,太美好了"

干物女

日本最新的流行语是「干物女」，也就是像香菇、干贝等干巴巴的女人，干物女最典型的特征是是在职场上看似光鲜的OL, 已经放弃恋爱，凡事追求轻松假日几乎都待在家里, 凡事都说：「这样最轻松」的年轻女人，假日时几乎都在家里睡觉，穿着高中时代的体育服装，歪斜躺在家里躺在沙发上、床上喝啤酒看棒球转播、DVD, 看电视或者上网。每天下班后会直接回家，一个人边看漫画，边喝酒……回复短信，不但字数少而且慢。口头禅：“麻烦死了”“随便啦”“唉，就这么可啦” 完全进入颟顸懒散舒服的生活，这原本是日本漫画《萤之光/小螢的青春》里二十七岁的女主角雨宫萤的状态，也是许多年轻女人的生活写照，引起绝大共鸣。

1.追求懒散闲适生活的年轻女人； Check
2.不管额头看起来有多高，在家里一定把头发随意夹起；Check
3.爱穿宽松的运动弹性布料，整体看起来不搭也无所谓； Check
4.随便站在厨房吃东西；
5.最近只有爬楼梯让自己心跳；Check
6.忘记东西则不脱鞋而直接以脚尖踩地板到房间拿；Check
7.假日不化妆也不戴胸罩； Check
8.一晃半年没上美容院；只有夏天除毛；
9.一个人也敢上饭馆吃饭； Check
10.认为在家看漫画也比跟男人谈恋爱有趣； Check
十项特点里有六项就已经是不折不扣的干物女，如果有四项就得小心，是干物女的预备军了。　

　　　
in conclusion: 放弃谈恋爱，每天下班后直接回家.一个人看着漫画.喝着酒.假日躲在被窝.过着无所谓的轻松生活.认为这样生活就很幸福的女性就是“干物女”。

這原本是日本漫畫《螢之光》裡27歲的女主角雨宮螢的生活狀態，現在則是許多中國年輕白領女子的生活寫照。不是要责怪现在的年轻女人，现在二、三十岁的女人非常辛苦，又要打扮的漂漂亮亮、争相要在男人面前吃得开，又要提高自己的职场履历与资格，虽然年纪不大，却宣称「男人毕业」而放弃找男人，走放松路线，好自为之地当起干巴巴女人来。嘴裏講著「談戀愛還不如在家睡覺.

以張薇為例，她今年26歲，兩年前畢業於西南大學，留校任教。她每天的生活就是三點一線：宿舍、食堂、教室，接觸的人不多，久而久之，乾脆待在家中以電視、書籍等打發時間。

週末如有老同學邀約聚會，她基本拒絕，原因是“出門太麻煩”，不但不能穿家居服，還要打扮一番。

報導指出，像張薇一樣成了“乾物女”的都市白領女子還不少。針對“乾物女”現象，心理專家分析，現代年輕女性壓力大，獨自在家休閒放鬆，只要控制在一定範圍內是正常的。

宅女: 虽然在房间,但是对于爱情仍然保持着憧憬,喜欢籍此由看日剧幻想.

That is why i like Jap Series........... always so close to heart. >..<

Super Duper Hot Agent J

2007-10-07T10:45:00.000+08:00

It's either i'm bisexual or i have a strong inclination to pretty things or she is juz simply too hot to handle for both sexes.

特务J

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Her Practising

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i especially like the part where she did the pole dancing. i never knew u can be so artistic, sexy and graceful....around a metal pole.

我愛台妹

2007-09-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

Cute Song!!!


歌名：我愛台妹
作詞：姚中仁/張震嶽
作曲：姚中仁/張震嶽
演唱：Mc Hot Dog、張震嶽
专辑：wake up

我的阿妹妹 快來和我跳阿哥哥 Go 我知道你看到是我 妳不會說No
我不是油頭葉教授 我的homiez都叫我熱狗 4 sure
女孩 就是喜歡妳台台 等等去家裡home pa要不要來
只怕你掛的太快 明天要去廟裡收驚拜拜 How High ?! We can kiss the sky!
人生海海 我們不會只是stand one night 『one night in 墾丁..我留下許多情..』
你是我的可口可樂 幫我解渴 看我穿著就知道我玩饒舌
不要說我壞話 因為我有順風耳 如果是你肚子大我帶你去看順風婦產科

我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 林志玲算什麼?!
我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 侯佩岑算什麼…..

我不愛中國小姐 我愛台妹 萬萬歲 妳的檳榔2粒要100 好貴 有沒有含睡
如果能夠和妳共枕眠 更多更多的奶粉錢 我願意為妳貢獻 我不是愛現
請妳噴上一點點銷魂的香水 換上妳最性感的高跟鞋 人群之中 妳最亮眼
台妹來了 我是否和妳一拍即合 跟我去很多的不良場合
大家看到我都對我喊yes sir 因為我是公認最屌的rapper
台妹們 麻煩和我拍拖 我不是凱子 可是付錢我也不會囉唆
純情是什麼 我不懂 我的想法很邪惡 張震嶽他懂

我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 林志玲算什麼?!
我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 侯佩岑算什麼…..

為了妳 我可能要投資一家檳榔攤 為了妳 家裡可能要有鋼管
為了妳 我要常常下去台南 為了妳　流氓會來找我麻煩
對於帶著一點風塵味的女生　我的腎上腺素毫不考慮亮起紅燈
畢竟妳不是天使　我也不是聖人 時尚的野獸 那就請你滾 我受夠
你是馬戲團訓練有素的animal 所有男模 女模 你在屌什麼
我就不信你現在還有處女膜 都是凱子搓
我喜歡台妹說話的口音 有時候挾帶幾句口白三字經
愛神的箭 你要射向哪裡 這裡 張震嶽 free9熱狗 這裡 等你

我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 林志玲算什麼?!
我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 侯佩岑算什麼…..
我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 林志玲算什麼?!
我愛台妹 台妹愛我 對我來說 侯佩岑算什麼…..

把手放在空中甩 我叫你什麼都不用管
讓我看妳把手放在空中甩 把手放在空中甩
台妹 手放在空中甩 叫你什麼都不用管
台客　手放在空中甩　把手放在空中甩

把衣服都掀起来 把奶罩都丢上来
把衣服都掀起来 把奶罩都丢上来
把衣服都掀起来 把奶罩都丢上来
把衣服都掀起来 把奶罩都丢上来

Suicide is Painless

2007-09-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

Through early morning fog I see
visions of the things to be
the pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...

that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.

The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
so this is all I have to say.

suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please

The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin

suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please

A brave man once requested me
to answer questions that are key
is it to be or not to be
and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

suicide is painless
it brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
...and you can do the same thing if you please.

I try to find a way to make
all our little joys relate
without that ever-present hate
but now I know that it's too late, and...
The only way to win is cheat
And lay it down before I'm beat
and to another give my seat
for that's the only painless feat.